Shell of me...
this week has been bad. I got hurt on monday and put myself out of commission for a weeek. Dr. says I cant go back to work till monday. But thats not the bad part. Thursday morning my cousin Billy hung himself in front of his children in my aunt's garage. His older brother died of a drug overdose just barely a year ago. My Aunt has lost both her children in a year. I also found out my aunt jackie is back on drugs and running from the police. Noone knows where she is, her son justin found her wanted poster at the mall. My cousin Stephanie in North Carolina has cancer. All of this i found out on thursday. My family is falling apart. i cant imagine the state of my aunt and my cousins children. Ive been a shell of me this entire week, Just...breathing, and eating, and sleeping, and staying alive. Im so sad. i just want to sleep, but then I have nightmares. My family is dying, one bad choice at a time. Im afraid my aunt jackie is next, I hope my cousin stephanie overcomes her cancer. I hope that my little cousins can salvage thier lives and be happy again someday. I hope my aunt jennifer doenst go crazy. the last 5 deaths in the family have all been within the last couple years and have all been people that were part of her immediate family or were living with her. Everytime this family starts to breathe again, someone else dies. my family is falling apart.