ugh..
i am verry sad now.. my friend petar.. who lives in australia.. won't talk to anyone.. he blocked all his mail.. and even people from leaving comments on his journal.. this is what he wrote...
"I am a broken soul....crushed and hurt. Bitterness has overwhelmed me and I have decided to do some further changes. I will be deleting all journal links on my journal. I will also be removing the comments section in my journal. I will be removing every name friend or not from my aol/aim buddylist. I will within the next 24 hours be blocking recieving mail from AOL Screen names.
I wish my friends best of luck in their lives and future endeavours. It is best that those of you who thought of me as a friend just forget about me. It is also best that those who called themselves my friends remember me in my good times and not the bad. Do not forget those times."
~~i can't help but cry.. i just wrote him a really long letter... and this is what i wrote...~
"I am a broken soul....crushed and hurt. Bitterness has overwhelmed me and I have decided to do some further changes. I will be deleting all journal links on my journal. I will also be removing the comments section in my journal. I will be removing every name friend or not from my aol/aim buddylist. I will within the next 24 hours be blocking recieving mail from AOL Screen names.
I wish my friends best of luck in their lives and future endeavours. It is best that those of you who thought of me as a friend just forget about me. It is also best that those who called themselves my friends remember me in my good times and not the bad. Do not forget those times."
~ Broken or not babe, I will always be here for you.. I just wish you could see how much you mean to me.. we may not always talk.. its been rough for the both of us.. but I don't want you to shut me out.. I will remember you regaurdless.. and I remember the old petar.. and I still loved you.. as I do now.. I know that is an evil word to you, you have been broken and twisted by women who used that word too freely.. but do they make you think less of me? I wish I could show you what real love is Petar Vodogaz.. I would give up everything I have to show you.. I know you probably never really looked at me like that.. but when we first met i had the biggest crush on you, because you liked a lot of the things I do.. we have similar music tastes, I love writing and reading, as do you... I guess what I am trying to say, is that.. no matter how much you change, you will always have a place in my heart.. if you don't wish to speak anymore.. i won't bother.. I don't want to cause you grief.. but just know, that i want to still be friends..
i just want you to know that i do think about you a lot too.. as you can see in one of recent journal entries..
from my journal.. http://www.livejournal.com/users/ladyblackraven/
7/31/05 07:39 pm - a general state of blah
well.. yeah.. i really suck.. most of my friends seem to busy for me.. so i am not even going to bother anymore.. i go back to work in a week or so.. i seem to have pissed off a few of my online friends.. most i don't really care about.. but there is one that i do.. it makes me sad.. because we get along really well and talk about stuff for hours.. and he has been avoiding me for like the past week.. and i don't know what i did.. i wish my friend petar was online.. he always makes me feel better when i am sad.. if i were to ever marry someone... i would want him to be just like petar.. lol.. too bad he lives in australia.. and has no interest in me like that.. *sighs* thats okay.. i still love him anyways.. but i guess its more of a brother and sister love.. ahh well... at least he's in my life.. i am going to go up to commons tonight.. and maybe out again alittle later.. i need to get away from jazz anyways.. he's been over my house since thursday.. and he is really starting to get on my nerves.. i can't wait to get the fuck out of here..i need to figure out something to do with my hair.. because i wanna wear my corset tonight.. but i donno.. ahh well.. i might as well find other ways to entertain myself..*sighs*
Current Mood: blah
~~~~~i am sad... ~~~~
"I am a broken soul....crushed and hurt. Bitterness has overwhelmed me and I have decided to do some further changes. I will be deleting all journal links on my journal. I will also be removing the comments section in my journal. I will be removing every name friend or not from my aol/aim buddylist. I will within the next 24 hours be blocking recieving mail from AOL Screen names.
I wish my friends best of luck in their lives and future endeavours. It is best that those of you who thought of me as a friend just forget about me. It is also best that those who called themselves my friends remember me in my good times and not the bad. Do not forget those times."
~~i can't help but cry.. i just wrote him a really long letter... and this is what i wrote...~
"I am a broken soul....crushed and hurt. Bitterness has overwhelmed me and I have decided to do some further changes. I will be deleting all journal links on my journal. I will also be removing the comments section in my journal. I will be removing every name friend or not from my aol/aim buddylist. I will within the next 24 hours be blocking recieving mail from AOL Screen names.
I wish my friends best of luck in their lives and future endeavours. It is best that those of you who thought of me as a friend just forget about me. It is also best that those who called themselves my friends remember me in my good times and not the bad. Do not forget those times."
~ Broken or not babe, I will always be here for you.. I just wish you could see how much you mean to me.. we may not always talk.. its been rough for the both of us.. but I don't want you to shut me out.. I will remember you regaurdless.. and I remember the old petar.. and I still loved you.. as I do now.. I know that is an evil word to you, you have been broken and twisted by women who used that word too freely.. but do they make you think less of me? I wish I could show you what real love is Petar Vodogaz.. I would give up everything I have to show you.. I know you probably never really looked at me like that.. but when we first met i had the biggest crush on you, because you liked a lot of the things I do.. we have similar music tastes, I love writing and reading, as do you... I guess what I am trying to say, is that.. no matter how much you change, you will always have a place in my heart.. if you don't wish to speak anymore.. i won't bother.. I don't want to cause you grief.. but just know, that i want to still be friends..
i just want you to know that i do think about you a lot too.. as you can see in one of recent journal entries..
from my journal.. http://www.livejournal.com/users/ladyblackraven/
7/31/05 07:39 pm - a general state of blah
well.. yeah.. i really suck.. most of my friends seem to busy for me.. so i am not even going to bother anymore.. i go back to work in a week or so.. i seem to have pissed off a few of my online friends.. most i don't really care about.. but there is one that i do.. it makes me sad.. because we get along really well and talk about stuff for hours.. and he has been avoiding me for like the past week.. and i don't know what i did.. i wish my friend petar was online.. he always makes me feel better when i am sad.. if i were to ever marry someone... i would want him to be just like petar.. lol.. too bad he lives in australia.. and has no interest in me like that.. *sighs* thats okay.. i still love him anyways.. but i guess its more of a brother and sister love.. ahh well... at least he's in my life.. i am going to go up to commons tonight.. and maybe out again alittle later.. i need to get away from jazz anyways.. he's been over my house since thursday.. and he is really starting to get on my nerves.. i can't wait to get the fuck out of here..i need to figure out something to do with my hair.. because i wanna wear my corset tonight.. but i donno.. ahh well.. i might as well find other ways to entertain myself..*sighs*
Current Mood: blah
~~~~~i am sad... ~~~~