so yeah..

[ladyblackraven]

at this point in time.. i am really sad.. because i thought that a few people who i still called friends i guess really are not my friends.. btw.. thanks Shawn.. thats real nice of you.. done with everyone eh?.. after all the shit i did... nice... real nice.. i never asked for much of anything except for your friendship.. and your done?.. whatever

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Re: NOT YOU SWEETIE!!!

[ladyblackraven]

sometimes you are so damn confusing Valik.. lol.. you know.. i was writing you an extrememly long letter on myspace.. i mean it wasn't nasty, but i was sad and disapointed.. and i know that i haven't really been around.. i have some health issues that i am dealing with.. somethings make you think differently about life.. and i have become more insecure about myself and things in my life than ever.. i was happy for a long time.. after i told mike and maura and a bunch of other people to go get fucked.. but now it seems that the rest of my friends are getting pissed off at me and for the most part have completely stoped talking to me.. they expect me to be the funny and amusing person i used to be.. well there are complications now.. and now, when i am being bouncy and happy.. its to keep myself from crying.. if the others that i call "friends" are not going to speak to me because of something.. then i guess it was a good thing that i didn't tell them, because i do not want their friendship out of sympathy... but in march when they had found the tumors.. and i had them tested and yadda yadda... i had them tested again about 2 weeks ago.. because i was having some problems.. and the results came back positive this time.. figures.. my luck... thats why i haven't really been talking to anyone.. you are the first i have told.. anyways.. i am going to stop babbling.. ttyl