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i haven't posted in ages. i have a little time now though, so maybe i'll just throw some shit out here.
-district 9 was GOOD. i want to see Nome, Alaska - bullshit or no.
-i am broke. i haven't been this penniless in ages. it's depressing and i feel hurt. i hope sean can pay me back soon after he gets back... that he didn't need all the cash fronted. either way, i'm glad i lent it to him so that he could have a good time and not worry about finances, but MAN, i'm HURTING. everything fell on top of me at once. when i come back from miami, it's job hunting in earnest. i don't even have clean clothes and i have no money to turn into quarters to do it. i think i'll just pack a bunch of dirty ass clothes and take THAT to miami, do some laundry as soon as i get in to mom's.
-i leave for miami on tuesday. pretty stoked to be going home and seeing the family and some friends.
-going to Gitane with AJ tonight, and i'm really psyched. it looks like such a gorgeous place: http://www.gitanerestaurant.com/ i've been meaning to go for ages, but now i get a chance! and with my beloved AJ!!!
-i've been feeling really emotionally disconnected with everything that is going on around me. so many things in my personal life have turned to utter chaos in a span of a couple of weeks. i've missed three boxing classes this week and i feel awful. i've just been staying up late with jake, raging hard. it's nice to have a friend... one i don't have to worry about any drama with. i just... don't know what tomorrow will bring, at this point. it's a really weird sensation. i've felt despair over this same situation before, and i've also felt opportunity in the same space... but... right now, i just feel like a stranger in a strange land.
...sometimes i wish i could just shut my eyes tight and melt into the covers.
welp... AJ's out the door, so no more time to complain. it's time to get my happy on and charge it to the credit card and hope to have enough cash to pay mom back.
-district 9 was GOOD. i want to see Nome, Alaska - bullshit or no.
-i am broke. i haven't been this penniless in ages. it's depressing and i feel hurt. i hope sean can pay me back soon after he gets back... that he didn't need all the cash fronted. either way, i'm glad i lent it to him so that he could have a good time and not worry about finances, but MAN, i'm HURTING. everything fell on top of me at once. when i come back from miami, it's job hunting in earnest. i don't even have clean clothes and i have no money to turn into quarters to do it. i think i'll just pack a bunch of dirty ass clothes and take THAT to miami, do some laundry as soon as i get in to mom's.
-i leave for miami on tuesday. pretty stoked to be going home and seeing the family and some friends.
-going to Gitane with AJ tonight, and i'm really psyched. it looks like such a gorgeous place: http://www.gitanerestaurant.com/ i've been meaning to go for ages, but now i get a chance! and with my beloved AJ!!!
-i've been feeling really emotionally disconnected with everything that is going on around me. so many things in my personal life have turned to utter chaos in a span of a couple of weeks. i've missed three boxing classes this week and i feel awful. i've just been staying up late with jake, raging hard. it's nice to have a friend... one i don't have to worry about any drama with. i just... don't know what tomorrow will bring, at this point. it's a really weird sensation. i've felt despair over this same situation before, and i've also felt opportunity in the same space... but... right now, i just feel like a stranger in a strange land.
...sometimes i wish i could just shut my eyes tight and melt into the covers.
welp... AJ's out the door, so no more time to complain. it's time to get my happy on and charge it to the credit card and hope to have enough cash to pay mom back.