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[ladyarie]

I've been feeling a little melancholy. Last night I cried off and on. I just laid in the dark and listened to some soft music. The music wasn't even sad. I was thinking and I realize some things about me and my family. I wasn't taking to do any soul searching. I was just doing some decision making. But I ended up soul searching anyways. I even explain why this feeling came on to me. I don't even understand. I haven't felt this way in awhile. And I hate feeling this way. Helpless and unsure of myself. In turn, I get frustrated with myself and then I feel worst. Such a vicious cycle of feelings. I feeling some type of way. Trying not to rain on anyone else's parade. I'm finally in a place were the sun is shining in my life and this feeling just hit me. *sigh* Trying to work through this funk.

Until next time
Ja Ne
Lady Arie-Ai