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So I talked to my german teacher and really there is no way for me to pass the class right now. I am way to behind from the stupid H1N1 flu crap and I was already failing the class before the flu. so I am going to have to drop the class. this of course means that I will go into suspension for financial aid. so I won't have money next semester. mom told me she will pay for my classes next semester and that will be my christmas present from her. just a little annoyed with myself about this but it's not like I chose to get sick or that I can physically take the stress of taking to many classes at once. I do think the universe is telling me that I need to move on and do something else now. not that I will stop going to school because no matter what I will get this bloody degree.
Nano is not going at all for me. dealing with all the school stuff I have just been to stressed to concentrate on writing so now that the school is figured out maybe I can get some writing done.
Jay has not called me for several days now and I am starting to get really worried, I know it's probably just that there in lockdown but I can't help but be worried. I know they won't contact me if anything happens to Jay except if he dies so for all I know he could be massively ill or in the hospital and I would never know. ugh I hate not knowing. I'm on the verge of crying all the time right now. I am so tired of being strong, I really just want to break down and cry, scream and just lose it. but I don't have that option I have to be the strong one, I have to be the one that keeps it together.I have to be the steady rock. ok I am going to go escape into a book.
Nano is not going at all for me. dealing with all the school stuff I have just been to stressed to concentrate on writing so now that the school is figured out maybe I can get some writing done.
Jay has not called me for several days now and I am starting to get really worried, I know it's probably just that there in lockdown but I can't help but be worried. I know they won't contact me if anything happens to Jay except if he dies so for all I know he could be massively ill or in the hospital and I would never know. ugh I hate not knowing. I'm on the verge of crying all the time right now. I am so tired of being strong, I really just want to break down and cry, scream and just lose it. but I don't have that option I have to be the strong one, I have to be the one that keeps it together.I have to be the steady rock. ok I am going to go escape into a book.