Ok...so i'm lazy
So it's been a while since my last update. Sorry...i'm just lazy sometimes and don't feel like typing frequently. Let's see...school is going ok so far...rather same old same old except that this year I'm doing competitions with my voice lessons. I'm kinda excited...miss doing competitions a little. Other than that, last weekend I was up at Chris's apartment as usual. We kinda had a little gummpy time though cause of somethings I put in my journal (under private that chris read). I don't mind being open with him, but sometimes I don't want him to read right away cause I don't want to hurt his feelings (especially if it's somethings that's bothering me that just can't be helped). After that though we were better, and Chris decided he wanted to make some candles...it was fun, we were up till 4am doing it too. Oh yeah and on Friday night we went out to the movies, which was a nice change...I admit, I do like being spoiled sometimes. But...shh don't tell chris (although he'll likely read this eventually).
Oh yeah...last night chris had a girl over named Jessie. Apparently she's in his Japanesse class with him and she likes anime. She's also not bad looking according to Chris. I don't know how I feel about her myself...hmm I guess I don't mind that he wants to screw her that much (we do have a fairly open relationship) but on the other hand..I guess somewhere in the depts of my mind I worry that they will get along too well eventually and I'll be out out of the picture. I donno...in a way I feel bad that he didn't get his one night stand last night, but in another way I am almost relieved. It's not really a matter of trust or anything, cause I trust him the most out of all the people I know (even more than my family in someways)...I think I'm just somewhat insecure with myself. I'm ok so long as I'm the one he wants though. I don't think I could bring myself to be with anyone but him anymore...I mean, there was a time...but now it's just not in me. Good thing for him I guess. Regardless, I'll let him have fun if he gets the chance to. I know that I'm not that attractive to him, so he should at least have the chance of getting with someone he thinks is.
Anyways...as far as today...my classes went well. I ran late to school, sped and managed still to get to my class just one time. Go me..lol. Other than that...when I got out I called Chris and we talked till I got home, which was very nice. I've missed the company. I really wanted to talk more last night to him, but when I found out that Jessie was over, I let him go pretty quick to at least give him a shot. That and when he called later on, I was too tired to talk a whole lot. I'm really looking forward to seeing him again to be honest. Mostly what I did once I got home was just kinda hang out..not much else. Oh yeah and yesterday I cleaned my room for once...hehe it looks NICE..especially since I rarely ever clean. Well that's my life mostly. Till next time...
Oh yeah...last night chris had a girl over named Jessie. Apparently she's in his Japanesse class with him and she likes anime. She's also not bad looking according to Chris. I don't know how I feel about her myself...hmm I guess I don't mind that he wants to screw her that much (we do have a fairly open relationship) but on the other hand..I guess somewhere in the depts of my mind I worry that they will get along too well eventually and I'll be out out of the picture. I donno...in a way I feel bad that he didn't get his one night stand last night, but in another way I am almost relieved. It's not really a matter of trust or anything, cause I trust him the most out of all the people I know (even more than my family in someways)...I think I'm just somewhat insecure with myself. I'm ok so long as I'm the one he wants though. I don't think I could bring myself to be with anyone but him anymore...I mean, there was a time...but now it's just not in me. Good thing for him I guess. Regardless, I'll let him have fun if he gets the chance to. I know that I'm not that attractive to him, so he should at least have the chance of getting with someone he thinks is.
Anyways...as far as today...my classes went well. I ran late to school, sped and managed still to get to my class just one time. Go me..lol. Other than that...when I got out I called Chris and we talked till I got home, which was very nice. I've missed the company. I really wanted to talk more last night to him, but when I found out that Jessie was over, I let him go pretty quick to at least give him a shot. That and when he called later on, I was too tired to talk a whole lot. I'm really looking forward to seeing him again to be honest. Mostly what I did once I got home was just kinda hang out..not much else. Oh yeah and yesterday I cleaned my room for once...hehe it looks NICE..especially since I rarely ever clean. Well that's my life mostly. Till next time...