What am i becoming?
so so far i've slept with two people. cory, and ryan. what, two you say? yes. i had a one night stand with a virgin while cory was in the other room. luckly the heat isnt on me anymore. the whole house knew what happend before i even woke up. isnt that allways how it works. so i guess its true, once you have sex with someone sex with anyone becomes a possiblity. i dont know what the fuck i was thinking.
and im messing around with a guy who has a girlfriend on a pretty consistant basis. when i first met him i had no idea, then i found out and i was pissed, but the next time i hung out with him i did it again. it just simply occured to me that i didnt care. and i should care. i used to care. and i feel bad, but its more that i feel bad because i dont. if that makes sense.
and my period is being fucked up. so i took a prego test just in case. vigin wore a condom but i've never had it like this. its just so fucking light. im never light on the first few days.
im worried that im going to sleep with stephen. so far i've managed not to. not because i dont want to, more that im too self concious.
so what the hell am i turning into? a homewrecker? a whore? or do i really not give a shit?
and im messing around with a guy who has a girlfriend on a pretty consistant basis. when i first met him i had no idea, then i found out and i was pissed, but the next time i hung out with him i did it again. it just simply occured to me that i didnt care. and i should care. i used to care. and i feel bad, but its more that i feel bad because i dont. if that makes sense.
and my period is being fucked up. so i took a prego test just in case. vigin wore a condom but i've never had it like this. its just so fucking light. im never light on the first few days.
im worried that im going to sleep with stephen. so far i've managed not to. not because i dont want to, more that im too self concious.
so what the hell am i turning into? a homewrecker? a whore? or do i really not give a shit?