Happy Birthday to meeeeee!
Okay, so I actually logged in here to add some friends, and I checked over the whopping three entries I've made in the last 2+ years, and decided it was past time to make a new entry.
First off, Mr. Super Wonderful Guy turned out to be a major d-bag who I later found out to be a manipulative piece of human excrement that had been involved with at least a few other KoLers before me. But, y'know, these things happen, and all I can do is learn my lesson from it and move on with my life.
Second, I have moved back to my mom's for the time being. Why, you ask? Am I out of my mind, you cry? I'll explain why, and quite possibly, to those respective questions. Some things happened a few months back that caused my mom to need my help, and since I was at her place quite a bit anyway, I thought I should quit wasting money on renting a place that I was never at and do not like all that much.
Third, yeah, it's my birthday today. I'm 29 now, and hating every minute of it. I s'pose I shouldn't, because supposedly 30 is the new 20 or some crap that the likes of Glamour and Cosmo have been spouting to the female masses. And some saying about women being like wine--they get better with age. Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatevs. I guess I'll learn to enjoy it, probably when I'm 40 lol.
This is the second birthday I've had without Steve (well, since we married anyway), and while laying in bed this morning, it was all I could think about. Not to sound like a broken record, but I really wish he was still here. I miss celebrating the good times with him, and sharing the bad times with him. It just feels kinda... bittersweet... without him here to celebrate it with me. But I'm sure he's up there somewhere, playing his guitar and singing "Happy Birthday" to me, grinning that silly grin of his. :)
Sean's first birthday is coming up (Saturday, the 16th). I can hardly believe he's going to be a year old! He's a gorgeous, happy little baby boy. He's living with my in-laws now. I let them adopt him a few months back, because I know deep down that's what's best for him in the long run. Even though it's been close to a year and a half since Steve's death, I know that I'm not emotionally able to be what Sean needs me to be. That doesn't mean that I don't stay in close contact with him & the in-laws. I talk to/see them often. Sean's happy, healthy, and in a stable environment, and that's what he needs right now, not a parent who's still grieving. It's getting a little bit better, one day at a time, but some days are worse than others. Steve's parents are great, and I'm glad to still be part of the family.
Also, for those who don't know, I won't be making it to Con V this year. It interferes with Jordyn's school schedule, and since my mom has to be to work @ 05:00, and my in-laws are now about a half-hour away, it'd be rude to inconvenience them with taking care of getting Jordyn to school during the time I'd be gone. Oh, well, no big deal. I know I'll see a lot of the Con attendees at KoLumbus in November. I can hardly wait! :)
That's all for now.
<3 - Lain
First off, Mr. Super Wonderful Guy turned out to be a major d-bag who I later found out to be a manipulative piece of human excrement that had been involved with at least a few other KoLers before me. But, y'know, these things happen, and all I can do is learn my lesson from it and move on with my life.
Second, I have moved back to my mom's for the time being. Why, you ask? Am I out of my mind, you cry? I'll explain why, and quite possibly, to those respective questions. Some things happened a few months back that caused my mom to need my help, and since I was at her place quite a bit anyway, I thought I should quit wasting money on renting a place that I was never at and do not like all that much.
Third, yeah, it's my birthday today. I'm 29 now, and hating every minute of it. I s'pose I shouldn't, because supposedly 30 is the new 20 or some crap that the likes of Glamour and Cosmo have been spouting to the female masses. And some saying about women being like wine--they get better with age. Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatevs. I guess I'll learn to enjoy it, probably when I'm 40 lol.
This is the second birthday I've had without Steve (well, since we married anyway), and while laying in bed this morning, it was all I could think about. Not to sound like a broken record, but I really wish he was still here. I miss celebrating the good times with him, and sharing the bad times with him. It just feels kinda... bittersweet... without him here to celebrate it with me. But I'm sure he's up there somewhere, playing his guitar and singing "Happy Birthday" to me, grinning that silly grin of his. :)
Sean's first birthday is coming up (Saturday, the 16th). I can hardly believe he's going to be a year old! He's a gorgeous, happy little baby boy. He's living with my in-laws now. I let them adopt him a few months back, because I know deep down that's what's best for him in the long run. Even though it's been close to a year and a half since Steve's death, I know that I'm not emotionally able to be what Sean needs me to be. That doesn't mean that I don't stay in close contact with him & the in-laws. I talk to/see them often. Sean's happy, healthy, and in a stable environment, and that's what he needs right now, not a parent who's still grieving. It's getting a little bit better, one day at a time, but some days are worse than others. Steve's parents are great, and I'm glad to still be part of the family.
Also, for those who don't know, I won't be making it to Con V this year. It interferes with Jordyn's school schedule, and since my mom has to be to work @ 05:00, and my in-laws are now about a half-hour away, it'd be rude to inconvenience them with taking care of getting Jordyn to school during the time I'd be gone. Oh, well, no big deal. I know I'll see a lot of the Con attendees at KoLumbus in November. I can hardly wait! :)
That's all for now.
<3 - Lain