Right.
I've had this on my mind for ages, and I'm finally awake so I've decided that before I actually get out of bed, I shall type it up, and this is where it's apparently going.
I've split my life and problems into 6 catagories.
Friends
Fandom
Boys
Different friends
Health
Life in general
It was my hope to see if compartmentalizing things would help. Apparently, doing it this way doesn't. I figured, if I could deal with each section at a time, things would work out.
Well, we'll start from the top. I can't deal with the friend issue, because it's complicated, wayyyyyy too complicated to write down here, or even tell anyone so we'll leave that.
I have no control over my fandom, and I just have to learn to deal with the decisions made, which is fair enough, I can do that, I think in general I already have, either that or I'm in denial.
I hate boys. Obviously I don't really, but I actually do. They're all either taken, gay, or fictional characters in tv shows -- or in Captain Jack Harkness's case all three. That or they live miles away. Nowt I can do about that, it's the way it goes.
Different friends this time around, well there's nothing I can do here either, I mean it's not my fault they live so far away and have shitty internet is it? But it's also no my fault that I miss them terribly all the time.
Sort of doing stuff about my health, although it does seem that no matter what I do in a good sense, I then get ill and it takes me back to beyond the beginning again. Which isn't good at all.
And life in general. Well, if only we all had a solution to that eh? My ideal solution would to have the money to move out, to have a job I enjoy and then to go to college, and still do the job part time. I'd then get top grades in my college course, and either go to Uni or get a job from the course, whichever was the best deal at the time, and the rest would be history because I'd be doing what I've wanted to do since I was small.
As if that can happen. The college bit might, but the moving out and getting a job is just as important right now, if not more if I want to be able to do well at college, I can't be here now can I?
/fail
I'm going back to sleep for a power nap to see if this all goes from my head so I can be down the rugby club later not going insane in my head. More than usual, especially when with Howard.
I've split my life and problems into 6 catagories.
Friends
Fandom
Boys
Different friends
Health
Life in general
It was my hope to see if compartmentalizing things would help. Apparently, doing it this way doesn't. I figured, if I could deal with each section at a time, things would work out.
Well, we'll start from the top. I can't deal with the friend issue, because it's complicated, wayyyyyy too complicated to write down here, or even tell anyone so we'll leave that.
I have no control over my fandom, and I just have to learn to deal with the decisions made, which is fair enough, I can do that, I think in general I already have, either that or I'm in denial.
I hate boys. Obviously I don't really, but I actually do. They're all either taken, gay, or fictional characters in tv shows -- or in Captain Jack Harkness's case all three. That or they live miles away. Nowt I can do about that, it's the way it goes.
Different friends this time around, well there's nothing I can do here either, I mean it's not my fault they live so far away and have shitty internet is it? But it's also no my fault that I miss them terribly all the time.
Sort of doing stuff about my health, although it does seem that no matter what I do in a good sense, I then get ill and it takes me back to beyond the beginning again. Which isn't good at all.
And life in general. Well, if only we all had a solution to that eh? My ideal solution would to have the money to move out, to have a job I enjoy and then to go to college, and still do the job part time. I'd then get top grades in my college course, and either go to Uni or get a job from the course, whichever was the best deal at the time, and the rest would be history because I'd be doing what I've wanted to do since I was small.
As if that can happen. The college bit might, but the moving out and getting a job is just as important right now, if not more if I want to be able to do well at college, I can't be here now can I?
/fail
I'm going back to sleep for a power nap to see if this all goes from my head so I can be down the rugby club later not going insane in my head. More than usual, especially when with Howard.