Why M.I.A?
Ummm... I just thought I'd update seeing asaslot of my friends have been and what can I say? I miss it. I like talking to myself. And I find that the people I met on live-journal are alot better then the people I meet in everyday life. Things have been REALLY fucking weird with me. I dunno if it's just PMS or I'm just all mood-swingy or it's the wheather. Fuck knows. Anyway, I've been in hiding alot. As Lis has noticed- she called me saying that I was "M.I.A" Which is true. I have bouts where I can't handle the internet. I know that probably makes absolutely NO sense to most everyone reading this but I dunno I spread myself to thin with things.
I finally finished Harry Potter 5 again so that I could start 6 like a true crazed fanatic... (*cough* looser) but yea- IT MAKES NO SENSE!!! WTF??!?! I won't specify that statement in case some of us didn't start yet. But yea...
My friends are all.... gone. Lis just got back from Germany and it's great to talk to her again but Becca is in Italy... or is she? I dunno even know- god forbid she calls. Arturo is in Ecuador still (cries) I miss him so much... Nicole hasn't been returning my phone calls which makes me think she just doesn't want to talk to me so I stopped caling... um, Andrea and I have been getting friendly again but yea- I'm always complaining about things I should just shut the hell up and talk about random happenings like normal people do on live-journal. I guess I'm just feeling resentful and lonely that my god-damn parents have been in New Jersey for the past couple of weeks and left me home to pace the house. Sometimes I really hate them. (glare)
My brother has been around a bunch. He's really been like a friend to me. It was his brithday yesterday and he gotts lotsa presents. He also found out that he got this great job at this insurance company where he makes 43,000 a year. I think it's funny that he makes more than my mother does XD Haha. This is going to sounds VERY selfish but... I'm jealous of him. Things come extremely easy for Nick. Did you ever meet someone like that? I mean the guy has a car, an apartment, a lap top, a fabulous job, went to a great college (an an expensive one that my parents paid for), had a great highschool experience complete with Captain of the Baseball team and hot girl-friend. And I? Well... none of that, that's for sure.
Ok, there I go again, complaining- well, live-journal is often used for venting, no? I think it's the college jitters that has gotten me acting this way. I'm sure most people can relate. I talked to my mother about it and to my surprise she said... "Lighten up!! You're a college student!! Go get drunk and have parties, stop worrying about your future!!" lol, And it's usually the other way around, how ironic.
...I just hate being alone. I do. I'm so fucking needy. But it's not even that, it's just that I start to think about all these things I should be doing or should have done and blame myself for one of the worst of the seven deadly sins... sloth. Damn me... I'm my own worst enemy.
Not to mention, I've just gotten better from being really sick. I think I caught Whoping Cough from my grandmother but I'm feeling somewhat better now. Still the occastional phlemy cough but what the hey- it's an imporovement. And on a brighter note, I applied to a job at Best Buy! Dorky? Fuck yea, but I'll get lots of discounts on the CDs that I buy weekly. I really have to stop- it's definitely an addiction. But hey, it's better than you know being addicted to say... crystal meth?! XD Music is the best addiction there is. But yes, this dicount thing is only IF I get the job. I must be practical and not get my hopes up just in case. But when I visited the store they said they were looking for people. The only thing I hope is that if I end up working there, it'll be in the Queens Center Mall and I DO NOT want to end up running into some people like people from my junior high or from college point- i.e, my ex Danny. Eek. That would be horrid.
Ok, ok you're probably reading this saying "GOD, SHUT UP!!" So I'll do that now. I'm done rambling. BYE! Love you all... I do.
I finally finished Harry Potter 5 again so that I could start 6 like a true crazed fanatic... (*cough* looser) but yea- IT MAKES NO SENSE!!! WTF??!?! I won't specify that statement in case some of us didn't start yet. But yea...
My friends are all.... gone. Lis just got back from Germany and it's great to talk to her again but Becca is in Italy... or is she? I dunno even know- god forbid she calls. Arturo is in Ecuador still (cries) I miss him so much... Nicole hasn't been returning my phone calls which makes me think she just doesn't want to talk to me so I stopped caling... um, Andrea and I have been getting friendly again but yea- I'm always complaining about things I should just shut the hell up and talk about random happenings like normal people do on live-journal. I guess I'm just feeling resentful and lonely that my god-damn parents have been in New Jersey for the past couple of weeks and left me home to pace the house. Sometimes I really hate them. (glare)
My brother has been around a bunch. He's really been like a friend to me. It was his brithday yesterday and he gotts lotsa presents. He also found out that he got this great job at this insurance company where he makes 43,000 a year. I think it's funny that he makes more than my mother does XD Haha. This is going to sounds VERY selfish but... I'm jealous of him. Things come extremely easy for Nick. Did you ever meet someone like that? I mean the guy has a car, an apartment, a lap top, a fabulous job, went to a great college (an an expensive one that my parents paid for), had a great highschool experience complete with Captain of the Baseball team and hot girl-friend. And I? Well... none of that, that's for sure.
Ok, there I go again, complaining- well, live-journal is often used for venting, no? I think it's the college jitters that has gotten me acting this way. I'm sure most people can relate. I talked to my mother about it and to my surprise she said... "Lighten up!! You're a college student!! Go get drunk and have parties, stop worrying about your future!!" lol, And it's usually the other way around, how ironic.
...I just hate being alone. I do. I'm so fucking needy. But it's not even that, it's just that I start to think about all these things I should be doing or should have done and blame myself for one of the worst of the seven deadly sins... sloth. Damn me... I'm my own worst enemy.
Not to mention, I've just gotten better from being really sick. I think I caught Whoping Cough from my grandmother but I'm feeling somewhat better now. Still the occastional phlemy cough but what the hey- it's an imporovement. And on a brighter note, I applied to a job at Best Buy! Dorky? Fuck yea, but I'll get lots of discounts on the CDs that I buy weekly. I really have to stop- it's definitely an addiction. But hey, it's better than you know being addicted to say... crystal meth?! XD Music is the best addiction there is. But yes, this dicount thing is only IF I get the job. I must be practical and not get my hopes up just in case. But when I visited the store they said they were looking for people. The only thing I hope is that if I end up working there, it'll be in the Queens Center Mall and I DO NOT want to end up running into some people like people from my junior high or from college point- i.e, my ex Danny. Eek. That would be horrid.
Ok, ok you're probably reading this saying "GOD, SHUT UP!!" So I'll do that now. I'm done rambling. BYE! Love you all... I do.