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What do you do when you've been hurt before and you are to afraid to let go? Yes i've been hurt. Nothing where it felt like I couldn't exist without another. I mean I thought I loved Bryan but I really don't think I was love. I think it was...you know I grew up with my brother's friends but I didn't really have any guy friends of my own. So I meet these two guys and one of them is so sweet and kind to me and makes me feel like a princess....so I think he likes me. Instead he is a complete flirt who causes me to believe things and feelings that aren't there and then his way of showing that its over is by completely hurting me. He was cruel and mean and now looking back I wonder how I thought I could ever love him. That story is ended.
Why do I continue to fall for guys who hurt me. The other one I like now is my supervisor. YES My supervisor....No I didn't mean to like him. It just happened over time...you know? He is so damn sexy...with this gorgeous smile and this awesome body and his rugged good looks. He is also amazingly sweet and kind. We ended up dating a little bit and now its like nothing. Not friends, not lovers nothing. Not only that but we had one night where we made out and he stirred my blood. Heat coursed through my veins and even though I want that again, I do not want to become his thing for him to use when he has an itch that needs to be scratched. I want to be his and I want him to be mine. I want to be his lover, his best friend, his eyes, his ears, his heart, his soul. Things that I do not believe are achievable now. I do not know what to do. Obviously he wants me but like I said I do not want to be his well his whore. I guess I want to be more than his friend! Oh well....thats my life right?
Why do I continue to fall for guys who hurt me. The other one I like now is my supervisor. YES My supervisor....No I didn't mean to like him. It just happened over time...you know? He is so damn sexy...with this gorgeous smile and this awesome body and his rugged good looks. He is also amazingly sweet and kind. We ended up dating a little bit and now its like nothing. Not friends, not lovers nothing. Not only that but we had one night where we made out and he stirred my blood. Heat coursed through my veins and even though I want that again, I do not want to become his thing for him to use when he has an itch that needs to be scratched. I want to be his and I want him to be mine. I want to be his lover, his best friend, his eyes, his ears, his heart, his soul. Things that I do not believe are achievable now. I do not know what to do. Obviously he wants me but like I said I do not want to be his well his whore. I guess I want to be more than his friend! Oh well....thats my life right?