This Entry Is About Boys
For years now I've been pretty depressed about being single. You know, it's the same old cliche story. Every guy I liked ended up liking another girl or just had no interest in me. Or the few I've dated, treated me like shit. Not all, by the way. My last boyfriend was very sweet. But other than him, my heart's been dragged through the mud so many times that I've nearly become numb to the whole thing.
So I moved out here and have really been concentrating on my career. It's the most important thing I've got going for me. Although yea, I'd still find myself from time to time feeling completely alone. It doesn't help that I'm surrounded by couples. Happy or not, they still have someone. But let's not get into that.
I just wanted to give a little background to illustrate just how ironic it is that I suddenly have three guys in my life. Yup, you read correctly. Three.
The first one is very sweet, but I barely know him. To be honest, I'm not interested in him at all when it comes to dating. I just want to hang out with him cause I think he'd be a cool friend. But now I'm told that he tends to fall in love with every girl he meets. And when he falls, he falls hard. And here I thought that him asking me to play laser tag with him was mostly innocent. I barely know the guy so the last thing I want to do is break his heart. I guess next time I see him, I'll have to have a talk with him. So looking forward to that. /sarcasm
And now the second guy. He's really awesome. He's most noted for his Iron Man costume and calls me Pepper so you can already tell how a flutter my heart is. But he lives kind of far away and I'm not about to start off a relationship long distance. Especially since I've never met him in person yet. I can definitely picture myself dating him, though I don't know yet if I'd be head over heels for him. But he's completely smitten with me. I've told him that nothing's going to happen since he lives far away and he understands. I just hope he doesn't over do it and get himself hurt.
Because you see, guy number three....yea, I'm totally head over heels for him. I'm not saying I'm in love or anything, but I can't get him off my mind. And it was a total accident. I didn't mean to fall for him at all. In fact, I tried very hard to put him out of my mind. But never have I felt so completely at ease with a guy before. I can be myself and that's really important since in the past, it seems that I always try to change something. I first saw him at our company's Christmas party last year and was instantly attracted. The man has a body of a greek god and the bluest eyes you'll every see. Not mention how unbelievably tall he is. But one look at him and I knew that we were in two completely different leagues. Not one higher than the other, but just too different. And that was that.
He ended up working at my company as a temp. I didn't even really look twice. Yea, he's hot, but I barely talked to him. Then he became permanent. And we bonded pretty quickly over our late night shifts. As I said before, I feel so comfortable with him. I really enjoyed talking to him and everything. But that was it. I figured that he's just a friend. I wasn't gonna try for more and ruin what we had going. Especially since I worked with him.
Well, then my friend at work mentioned that I need to ask him out. Our chemistry is something not to ignore. Immediately I thought, "nah, he's not interested in me". But then the idea stuck and I started to notice little things he did and said. Things that could be taken a certain way that I didn't see before. So I did it. I asked him out for a drink after work. Which, by the way, is a big deal for me since I was pretty much done with guys for now. And without hesitation, he said yes!
Since then, it's been non-stop flirting. And now he no longer works here. We went out together again (still not a date) and danced and held hands (cause I was too tipsy to walk properly) and even crashed in the same bed together (since I was too tipsy to drive home). And all the while we were cuddling, he never once acted ungentlemanly.
But I haven't heard anything since then. And you know me when it comes to romance. Ever the pessimist. I just don't know if he actually feels this way towards me. He hasn't asked me out on a date yet or anything. I guess only time will tell.
So that's it. Everything that I just felt that I needed to get out. I'm curious to see how things go but at the same time, a little impatient.
So I moved out here and have really been concentrating on my career. It's the most important thing I've got going for me. Although yea, I'd still find myself from time to time feeling completely alone. It doesn't help that I'm surrounded by couples. Happy or not, they still have someone. But let's not get into that.
I just wanted to give a little background to illustrate just how ironic it is that I suddenly have three guys in my life. Yup, you read correctly. Three.
The first one is very sweet, but I barely know him. To be honest, I'm not interested in him at all when it comes to dating. I just want to hang out with him cause I think he'd be a cool friend. But now I'm told that he tends to fall in love with every girl he meets. And when he falls, he falls hard. And here I thought that him asking me to play laser tag with him was mostly innocent. I barely know the guy so the last thing I want to do is break his heart. I guess next time I see him, I'll have to have a talk with him. So looking forward to that. /sarcasm
And now the second guy. He's really awesome. He's most noted for his Iron Man costume and calls me Pepper so you can already tell how a flutter my heart is. But he lives kind of far away and I'm not about to start off a relationship long distance. Especially since I've never met him in person yet. I can definitely picture myself dating him, though I don't know yet if I'd be head over heels for him. But he's completely smitten with me. I've told him that nothing's going to happen since he lives far away and he understands. I just hope he doesn't over do it and get himself hurt.
Because you see, guy number three....yea, I'm totally head over heels for him. I'm not saying I'm in love or anything, but I can't get him off my mind. And it was a total accident. I didn't mean to fall for him at all. In fact, I tried very hard to put him out of my mind. But never have I felt so completely at ease with a guy before. I can be myself and that's really important since in the past, it seems that I always try to change something. I first saw him at our company's Christmas party last year and was instantly attracted. The man has a body of a greek god and the bluest eyes you'll every see. Not mention how unbelievably tall he is. But one look at him and I knew that we were in two completely different leagues. Not one higher than the other, but just too different. And that was that.
He ended up working at my company as a temp. I didn't even really look twice. Yea, he's hot, but I barely talked to him. Then he became permanent. And we bonded pretty quickly over our late night shifts. As I said before, I feel so comfortable with him. I really enjoyed talking to him and everything. But that was it. I figured that he's just a friend. I wasn't gonna try for more and ruin what we had going. Especially since I worked with him.
Well, then my friend at work mentioned that I need to ask him out. Our chemistry is something not to ignore. Immediately I thought, "nah, he's not interested in me". But then the idea stuck and I started to notice little things he did and said. Things that could be taken a certain way that I didn't see before. So I did it. I asked him out for a drink after work. Which, by the way, is a big deal for me since I was pretty much done with guys for now. And without hesitation, he said yes!
Since then, it's been non-stop flirting. And now he no longer works here. We went out together again (still not a date) and danced and held hands (cause I was too tipsy to walk properly) and even crashed in the same bed together (since I was too tipsy to drive home). And all the while we were cuddling, he never once acted ungentlemanly.
But I haven't heard anything since then. And you know me when it comes to romance. Ever the pessimist. I just don't know if he actually feels this way towards me. He hasn't asked me out on a date yet or anything. I guess only time will tell.
So that's it. Everything that I just felt that I needed to get out. I'm curious to see how things go but at the same time, a little impatient.