Conclusion
I have reached a conclusion. Last night my other friends and in particular my brother William, showed little sign of being concerned about Mike, whilst I was practically a nervous wreck from stressing so much and I couldn't help but think about the reasons why I was being affected in such a different way to anyone else. First of all there is the obvious answer of my reaction being due to my feelings towards him, but I'm positive that there is more to it than that. Anxiety affects me in my everyday life over the smallest of things anyway, social interaction with friends and even family for example and the reluctance to leave the house alone or use a bus on my own or the inability to perform the simplest of tasks. I would expect that these seem like relatively insignificant issues to a lot of people and that they aren't troubled by anything that I have mentioned above. Well here's the thing, I often get anxious over the smaller aspects of life, so when it comes to important stuff when there is actual cause for some worry, I tend to freak out, like really, really. Whenever I feel like I've overreacted to something I feel incredibly silly but maybe it isn't something which I can control and besides nobody can really fault me for being worried about something that causes me great concern, can they?