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I'm really stuck in a dilemma right now. For the first time in forever it seems that a bloke is actually interested in me and now he wants to meet me for a drink. The problem: I don't do socializing, it is something very alien to me and the thought of meeting someone alone is too terrifying to be able to put into words but would be something like this aaaarrrrrrgh!!!
I'm an adult(supposedly) and the only person placing limitations on myself is myself, there is nothing physically restricting me from doing this it's all in my mind. Unfortunately my mind just happens to have a very strong hold over me and because of this I am incapable of living my life in a way that would make me happy. It's just so frustrating and it makes me angry at myself for being such a hopeless case and not having the guts to do anything.
I really want to meet this bloke, he's been so nice to me ever since we met at the first network meeting that was held and it feels like this could be my one and only chance but I'm probably just going to throw it away. The truth is I don't feel ready for anything. I know that I can't be in a relationship because of how many issues I have with myself at the moment and I don't want to place those problems on anybody else.
So the question is should I meet him despite all the fears I have?
I'm an adult(supposedly) and the only person placing limitations on myself is myself, there is nothing physically restricting me from doing this it's all in my mind. Unfortunately my mind just happens to have a very strong hold over me and because of this I am incapable of living my life in a way that would make me happy. It's just so frustrating and it makes me angry at myself for being such a hopeless case and not having the guts to do anything.
I really want to meet this bloke, he's been so nice to me ever since we met at the first network meeting that was held and it feels like this could be my one and only chance but I'm probably just going to throw it away. The truth is I don't feel ready for anything. I know that I can't be in a relationship because of how many issues I have with myself at the moment and I don't want to place those problems on anybody else.
So the question is should I meet him despite all the fears I have?