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Nov 20, 2006 00:53


By the way, with all the mention of me collaring my boy, (who is also my Daddy --- yes, we switch and there is only the two of us), I want to make note of the fact that Daddy collared me as *his* boy several months ago...

I think I just move slowly when it comes to collaring someone. I've only ever collared one other person... and that was Sean Michael. There was such a painful end to our relationship... I felt so much guilt and needed to do so much work on myself before I could even contemplate taking on the responsibility of another's trust ever again. It has taken me much time and hard work since the end of that relationship to put the resulting hurt to rest and be ready to take back my strength and confidence, pride and self-love as a Top. But the healing has come. And with that healing and release, the relationship with my boy has grown and flourished. It is definitely time now to claim him. He more than deserves this collar. And I am ready... not perfect, but ready.

And he has already worn a dog tag I gave him several months ago which stays constantly around his neck, declaring "This boy belongs to Daddy R". :-) I really like that. I have a matching tag on my keychain.

Sadly, right now I cannot wear the collar Sir put on my neck , because of the physical pain I currently am in. But he recently gave me a beautiful polished pewter cuff with his initials engraved on it which I wear on my right wrist. It helps. I miss the physical feeling of being collared, though. So sometimes, on days when the pain isn't too bad, I put on the lighter weight collar he got me when my body started to really hurt. But I can only wear that collar for a short while before I need to take it off too. Such bitter, bitter irony. (see poem a few posts below)

boy, collar, leather, daddy

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