FIC: The Mirror Never Lies (NC-17) (Chapter 2/3)
Title: The Mirror Never Lies (Chapter 2/3)
Author: Lady Remus
Pairings: Sirius Black/Remus Lupin
Length: Unknown at this point but word count will be allocated once Chapter 3 has been completed and beta read
Summary: When Remus finds himself in a strange room, he finds himself confronting his anxieties…and his hidden desires. The sequel to my fic, " Second Time Round"
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: homosexual activity
Disclaimer: The original characters come from the mind of J K Rowling. I don’t own them and I’m certainly not making any profit from this.
Beta: emotionalwench (LJ), faith_in_stars (GJ)
Notes: I don’t know about anywhere else in England or the world for the matter but “Leave it our” is a possible phrase instead of “Drop it” and “Let it go” There were also a few complications with beta reading and I ended up having two beta readers. So because I used only one reader for the first chapter, I re-edited the first chapter using ideas from both beta readers so you might want to read Chapter 1 again (if you haven’t read the re-write already).
Dedication: This goes out to my two beta readers. Having two betas was a mistake in my part. I sent it to faith_in_stars but he ended up being too busy and I eventually sent the story to emotionalwench. However, stupid me forgot to tell the first beta reader who sent me all three chapters edited by him (after I got the edited version from emotionalwench). So, eventually the problem was solved when I decided to merge the ideas of both readers which turned out to be a top idea in the end because I got the best of both worlds. So, cutting a long story short, this story is for them.
Review: : Yes please. (You can also review it here: http://hp.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=7751 and http://www.fanfiction.net/u/425745/)
Chapter 2- Confrontation
Remus had a very good memory, but he realised he was lost when he found himself walking down a corridor he did not recognise. He thought that was peculiar, because the Marauders had explored every part of Hogwarts in order to create their special map.
Maybe I do know this place, but it’s too dark to tell, he thought After all, there is hardly any light here. Or maybe James, Peter or Sirius found this place instead and simply put it onto the map themselves.
He found a door ajar to his left, and curiosity got the better of him. He walked into the room, which looked like a disused classroom. Desks and chairs were piled up against the wall, and he could see dust forming on the floor.
He gazed in front of him and saw a mirror on the far wall. It was a large mirror and it stood on two clawed metal feet. Remus noticed that the frame was golden and ornate. He had never seen anything so beautiful in his life. He walked towards it, and he could see an inscription engraved on the top of the mirror: erised stra ehru oyt ube cafru oyt on wohsi. Remus stared at the inscription trying to understand its meaning, but to no avail. Remus hated not being able to solve problems right away, so the inscription on the mirror irritated him slightly.
He gave up, sighed, took a chair from the pile and placed it on the floor. He sat so that he was not facing the window, but one of the walls. He rubbed his forehead slightly because he was receiving another one of his headaches. He had been getting headaches all week, and he knew why. Sirius had been right--his tiredness and headaches were partly because of the upcoming NEWTs, but mostly he could not stop thinking about what happened between him and Sirius a week earlier. And now, he had made the situation worse by pushing away his best friend.
He sighed and looked in the mirror. What he saw caused him to stand up and move towards it until he was standing under the moonlight. The mirror-Remus was basking in the light of the moon, and yet he did not change into a werewolf. The reflection was smiling as if he was at peace with himself.
Remus lowered his eyebrows, How on earth can I be basking in the moonlight and yet still be human? And it’s not even night time? What kind of mirror is this?
Then, something happened which confused Remus more. He could now see not only himself in the moonlight, but now he could see Sirius. Remus turned around and saw there was no one else in the room, not even in the doorway. He turned back to the window and saw the mirror-Sirius moving towards the mirror-Remus.
How can he be moving towards me? he wondered. He’s not even in the room!
Remus sighed and stared at the reflection. “Sirius, I know you’re wearing James’ cloak, and I know you’re behind me so stop it!”
The mirror-Sirius still walked towards the mirror-Remus and wrapped his arms around him. Sirius kissed Remus’ cheek and then proceeded to kiss and lick his neck. He unbuttoned Remus’ shirt and caressed his slightly scarred chest.
The real-life Remus looked on in shock as he watched his reflection close his eyes and moan in delight. He closed his eyes but it did not block out the images now forming in his head: Sirius sucking his cock. Releasing his sperm in the animagus’ mouth. Experiencing of the best orgasm’s ever.
Another image formed of Sirius resting on his chest as the werewolf tasted his friend’s sperm. He also found himself revisiting dreams from the past week. Dreams of him simply being with Sirius, physically and emotionally. He also saw Sirius towering over him, kissing him softly. He could feel his cock harden at the past memories, and he suddenly felt ashamed.
Stop it! It’s dirty…it was wrong to do that with your best friend
But surely something that feels this good isn’t dirty, especially with my best friend…and, if I was willing to do all that to my best friend, maybe he means more to me than I realise…and he said that he loves me…oh God, he loves me…and he is so beautiful…just maybe…
STOP IT! IT’S DIRTY TO FEEL ATTARCTED TO MEN! ONLY WOMEN CAN DO THAT!
“What’s going on?” he said to himself, “Sirius is not in the room. He’s not touching me, so what in the hell…what’s happening to me?”
“I guess you found the Mirror of Erised.”
Remus opened his eyes, turned around and saw James and Lily in the doorway. The werewolf looked back at the mirror and saw the mirror-Sirius still kissing and caressing the mirror-Remus. The mirror-Sirius was now pulling down the mirror-Remus’ trousers and underpants. Remus watched as his reflection writhed as the mirror-Sirius began to rub the mirror-Remus’ erection.
Remus turned back to the couple. “What are you two doing here?”
James and Lily walked into the room. James said, “We just came to find you. I think it’s time we had a talk.”
James took out his wand and said, “Accio, chairs.”
Three chairs rose up from one of the piles, and landed in a triangle. James and Lily sat down on two chairs, and James patted on the seat of the third while looking at Remus.
“Come and sit down.” James said.
Remus slowly and reluctantly came towards the chairs and sat on the only available one. He sat as if he was in trouble, with his head bowed and his hands clasped together on his lap.
The werewolf mumbled, “What is the Mirror called?”
James said, “The Mirror of Esired.”
Without looking up, Remus asked, “What does the mirror do?”
Lily said, “Well, read the inscription at the top.”
“I have done. Erised stra ehru oyt ube cafru oyt on wohsi? It’s gibberish.”
James replied, “No, it’s not. It’s backwards.”
“Backwards?”
“Yeah…it took us a while to figure it out when I first discovered it,” James explained, “but it actually says, ‘I show not your face, but your heart's desire’. And that is exactly what it does. It shows what you truly desire, and that is what we have come to talk to you about, Remus. Tell me, what did you see?”
Remus hesitated before saying, “I see myself under a full moon, but I am not turning into a werewolf. I was cured of this curse.” He sighed as if he was relieved. “It was wonderful.”
“Anything else?” James raised an eyebrow.
Remus shook his head violently. “No. That’s all I saw. It is what I desired.”
“Well, Lily I am surprised,” James said, “I had a feeling that he desired to be cured, but I never realised he would be so shocked to see it in front of his eyes…”
Remus looked up and said defensively, “Of course I was shocked. I didn’t know what kind of mirror it was. I didn’t know it would show me my hidden desires. I just thought it was an ordinary mirror.”
James looked at Lily and smiled. “Well, I guess he thinks we never heard him.”
“What?”
James looked back at Remus and mimicked his friend, “’What’s going on?’, you said. ‘Sirius is not in the room. He’s not touching me,’ you said. Touching you, was he? Like he was last week?”
Remus became defiant. “What are you talking about? Sirius has never touched me.”
“Oh, come on. Remember last week when I found you and Sirius in the dormitory? Do you really think I’m stupid enough to think that you had been asleep?”
“I HAD been asleep, and I woke up.”
“And I suppose Sirius decided to take a quick nap with you? Remus, I saw the look in his eyes when he lied. I'd never seen that look in his eyes. Then again I don’t think he has ever lied to me until then."
Remus grabbed hold of his own hair and pulled it hard. “Nothing ever happened in there, James! Now just leave it out! And anyway, even if something did happen, it’s none of your business!”
Lily spoke quietly, “James, you’re getting him wound up. Let’s just go.”
James looked at his girlfriend and said in a tone of voice as gentle as hers, “Lily, didn’t you see what Sirius was like just now? He was in tears…”
“What?” Remus was shocked.
James turned back to his friend in defiance. “Yeah, you heard me. The most carefree student in Hogwarts was in tears. Now you know as much as I do that he has never cries. Hell, he didn’t even cry when his parents disowned him. So he must have really got upset over something, and I have a feeling it’s something to do with the pair of you. That’s why we came to find you. We just have to know what in the hell is up with you two.”
Remus looked down at his lap in shame. “We just had an argument, that’s all.”
“Yeah, but what about what happened last week? Remus, you don’t have to give the full details. I just suspect something is up between you two, and I want to get to the bottom of this so we can all go back to being normal.”
“We are normal, “Remus insisted. “There’s nothing wrong. Like I said, we just had a small disagreement.”
“But we Marauders have never had so much as a single harsh word between each other, not even when we found that you are a werewolf…”
“Well this time, it was different.”
“How?” James asked, clearly losing his patience.
Remus stood up without saying a word. He went over to the mirror again and looked in it. And there was the same image he had seen before: his reflection and the mirror-Sirius were now holding, kissing and touching each other. The look of his reflection was that of contentment and peace. The mirror-Sirius bore his usual cheeky smile, and Remus smiled back. He reached up and touched the mirror-Sirius on the cheek.
Oh God, he is so beautiful…and I desire him…and I made him cry. Oh no, I hit my best friend and made him cry.
Tears filled up in his eyes, and he stared at the mirror-Sirius in silence through blurry eyes. He had even begun to forget he was even in the room. He was awakened from his thoughts when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
Lily asked him softly, “It's Sirius in the mirror, isn’t?”
Without thinking, Remus nodded.
“You do desire him, then?”
Remus nodded more furiously this time, still staring at the mirror. “Yeah. Something did happen between us last week. I don’t want to tell you, but I can say that it was absolutely wonderful. But I pushed him away, Lily. We got close again today--not as close as last week, but still close, and once again, I pushed him away. When he tried to talk to me today, not only did I push him, but I punched him in the process.” The memory of the incident caused the tears that were welling up in his eyes to finally fall. He slowly slid down to the floor until he was curled up on the floor like a baby. “I swear I never meant to hit him.”
Lily sat down on the floor next to him and gathered him in her arms, placing his head on her chest. She stroked his hair gently and beckoned James to come over. James walked over to the mirror and sat down on the other side of the werewolf.
“We believe you, mate,” James said calmly.
Lily soothed, “There’s no need to cry, love.”
Remus sobbed, “It’s just…what we did…was so…dirty!”
Lily simply said, “Dirty! What is so dirty about wanting to be close to the one you love?”
Remus did not say a word for a while, but eventually he sighed and said, “I would like to be on my own for a while, please.”
James started to say, “But Remy…” but the werewolf repeated himself, “I would like to be on my own for a while please.”
James and Lily looked at each other over the werewolf, and nodded together in agreement. Lily gently placed Remus’ head on the floor, and she stood up. James stood up as well and took her hand. They both walked over to the entrance and before leaving the room completely, they looked back at their friend who was curled up on the floor. Not knowing what to say, they left the room, leaving the werewolf to his thoughts.
To be concluded…
Author: Lady Remus
Pairings: Sirius Black/Remus Lupin
Length: Unknown at this point but word count will be allocated once Chapter 3 has been completed and beta read
Summary: When Remus finds himself in a strange room, he finds himself confronting his anxieties…and his hidden desires. The sequel to my fic, " Second Time Round"
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: homosexual activity
Disclaimer: The original characters come from the mind of J K Rowling. I don’t own them and I’m certainly not making any profit from this.
Beta: emotionalwench (LJ), faith_in_stars (GJ)
Notes: I don’t know about anywhere else in England or the world for the matter but “Leave it our” is a possible phrase instead of “Drop it” and “Let it go” There were also a few complications with beta reading and I ended up having two beta readers. So because I used only one reader for the first chapter, I re-edited the first chapter using ideas from both beta readers so you might want to read Chapter 1 again (if you haven’t read the re-write already).
Dedication: This goes out to my two beta readers. Having two betas was a mistake in my part. I sent it to faith_in_stars but he ended up being too busy and I eventually sent the story to emotionalwench. However, stupid me forgot to tell the first beta reader who sent me all three chapters edited by him (after I got the edited version from emotionalwench). So, eventually the problem was solved when I decided to merge the ideas of both readers which turned out to be a top idea in the end because I got the best of both worlds. So, cutting a long story short, this story is for them.
Review: : Yes please. (You can also review it here: http://hp.adultfanfiction.net/authors.php?no=7751 and http://www.fanfiction.net/u/425745/)
Chapter 2- Confrontation
Remus had a very good memory, but he realised he was lost when he found himself walking down a corridor he did not recognise. He thought that was peculiar, because the Marauders had explored every part of Hogwarts in order to create their special map.
Maybe I do know this place, but it’s too dark to tell, he thought After all, there is hardly any light here. Or maybe James, Peter or Sirius found this place instead and simply put it onto the map themselves.
He found a door ajar to his left, and curiosity got the better of him. He walked into the room, which looked like a disused classroom. Desks and chairs were piled up against the wall, and he could see dust forming on the floor.
He gazed in front of him and saw a mirror on the far wall. It was a large mirror and it stood on two clawed metal feet. Remus noticed that the frame was golden and ornate. He had never seen anything so beautiful in his life. He walked towards it, and he could see an inscription engraved on the top of the mirror: erised stra ehru oyt ube cafru oyt on wohsi. Remus stared at the inscription trying to understand its meaning, but to no avail. Remus hated not being able to solve problems right away, so the inscription on the mirror irritated him slightly.
He gave up, sighed, took a chair from the pile and placed it on the floor. He sat so that he was not facing the window, but one of the walls. He rubbed his forehead slightly because he was receiving another one of his headaches. He had been getting headaches all week, and he knew why. Sirius had been right--his tiredness and headaches were partly because of the upcoming NEWTs, but mostly he could not stop thinking about what happened between him and Sirius a week earlier. And now, he had made the situation worse by pushing away his best friend.
He sighed and looked in the mirror. What he saw caused him to stand up and move towards it until he was standing under the moonlight. The mirror-Remus was basking in the light of the moon, and yet he did not change into a werewolf. The reflection was smiling as if he was at peace with himself.
Remus lowered his eyebrows, How on earth can I be basking in the moonlight and yet still be human? And it’s not even night time? What kind of mirror is this?
Then, something happened which confused Remus more. He could now see not only himself in the moonlight, but now he could see Sirius. Remus turned around and saw there was no one else in the room, not even in the doorway. He turned back to the window and saw the mirror-Sirius moving towards the mirror-Remus.
How can he be moving towards me? he wondered. He’s not even in the room!
Remus sighed and stared at the reflection. “Sirius, I know you’re wearing James’ cloak, and I know you’re behind me so stop it!”
The mirror-Sirius still walked towards the mirror-Remus and wrapped his arms around him. Sirius kissed Remus’ cheek and then proceeded to kiss and lick his neck. He unbuttoned Remus’ shirt and caressed his slightly scarred chest.
The real-life Remus looked on in shock as he watched his reflection close his eyes and moan in delight. He closed his eyes but it did not block out the images now forming in his head: Sirius sucking his cock. Releasing his sperm in the animagus’ mouth. Experiencing of the best orgasm’s ever.
Another image formed of Sirius resting on his chest as the werewolf tasted his friend’s sperm. He also found himself revisiting dreams from the past week. Dreams of him simply being with Sirius, physically and emotionally. He also saw Sirius towering over him, kissing him softly. He could feel his cock harden at the past memories, and he suddenly felt ashamed.
Stop it! It’s dirty…it was wrong to do that with your best friend
But surely something that feels this good isn’t dirty, especially with my best friend…and, if I was willing to do all that to my best friend, maybe he means more to me than I realise…and he said that he loves me…oh God, he loves me…and he is so beautiful…just maybe…
STOP IT! IT’S DIRTY TO FEEL ATTARCTED TO MEN! ONLY WOMEN CAN DO THAT!
“What’s going on?” he said to himself, “Sirius is not in the room. He’s not touching me, so what in the hell…what’s happening to me?”
“I guess you found the Mirror of Erised.”
Remus opened his eyes, turned around and saw James and Lily in the doorway. The werewolf looked back at the mirror and saw the mirror-Sirius still kissing and caressing the mirror-Remus. The mirror-Sirius was now pulling down the mirror-Remus’ trousers and underpants. Remus watched as his reflection writhed as the mirror-Sirius began to rub the mirror-Remus’ erection.
Remus turned back to the couple. “What are you two doing here?”
James and Lily walked into the room. James said, “We just came to find you. I think it’s time we had a talk.”
James took out his wand and said, “Accio, chairs.”
Three chairs rose up from one of the piles, and landed in a triangle. James and Lily sat down on two chairs, and James patted on the seat of the third while looking at Remus.
“Come and sit down.” James said.
Remus slowly and reluctantly came towards the chairs and sat on the only available one. He sat as if he was in trouble, with his head bowed and his hands clasped together on his lap.
The werewolf mumbled, “What is the Mirror called?”
James said, “The Mirror of Esired.”
Without looking up, Remus asked, “What does the mirror do?”
Lily said, “Well, read the inscription at the top.”
“I have done. Erised stra ehru oyt ube cafru oyt on wohsi? It’s gibberish.”
James replied, “No, it’s not. It’s backwards.”
“Backwards?”
“Yeah…it took us a while to figure it out when I first discovered it,” James explained, “but it actually says, ‘I show not your face, but your heart's desire’. And that is exactly what it does. It shows what you truly desire, and that is what we have come to talk to you about, Remus. Tell me, what did you see?”
Remus hesitated before saying, “I see myself under a full moon, but I am not turning into a werewolf. I was cured of this curse.” He sighed as if he was relieved. “It was wonderful.”
“Anything else?” James raised an eyebrow.
Remus shook his head violently. “No. That’s all I saw. It is what I desired.”
“Well, Lily I am surprised,” James said, “I had a feeling that he desired to be cured, but I never realised he would be so shocked to see it in front of his eyes…”
Remus looked up and said defensively, “Of course I was shocked. I didn’t know what kind of mirror it was. I didn’t know it would show me my hidden desires. I just thought it was an ordinary mirror.”
James looked at Lily and smiled. “Well, I guess he thinks we never heard him.”
“What?”
James looked back at Remus and mimicked his friend, “’What’s going on?’, you said. ‘Sirius is not in the room. He’s not touching me,’ you said. Touching you, was he? Like he was last week?”
Remus became defiant. “What are you talking about? Sirius has never touched me.”
“Oh, come on. Remember last week when I found you and Sirius in the dormitory? Do you really think I’m stupid enough to think that you had been asleep?”
“I HAD been asleep, and I woke up.”
“And I suppose Sirius decided to take a quick nap with you? Remus, I saw the look in his eyes when he lied. I'd never seen that look in his eyes. Then again I don’t think he has ever lied to me until then."
Remus grabbed hold of his own hair and pulled it hard. “Nothing ever happened in there, James! Now just leave it out! And anyway, even if something did happen, it’s none of your business!”
Lily spoke quietly, “James, you’re getting him wound up. Let’s just go.”
James looked at his girlfriend and said in a tone of voice as gentle as hers, “Lily, didn’t you see what Sirius was like just now? He was in tears…”
“What?” Remus was shocked.
James turned back to his friend in defiance. “Yeah, you heard me. The most carefree student in Hogwarts was in tears. Now you know as much as I do that he has never cries. Hell, he didn’t even cry when his parents disowned him. So he must have really got upset over something, and I have a feeling it’s something to do with the pair of you. That’s why we came to find you. We just have to know what in the hell is up with you two.”
Remus looked down at his lap in shame. “We just had an argument, that’s all.”
“Yeah, but what about what happened last week? Remus, you don’t have to give the full details. I just suspect something is up between you two, and I want to get to the bottom of this so we can all go back to being normal.”
“We are normal, “Remus insisted. “There’s nothing wrong. Like I said, we just had a small disagreement.”
“But we Marauders have never had so much as a single harsh word between each other, not even when we found that you are a werewolf…”
“Well this time, it was different.”
“How?” James asked, clearly losing his patience.
Remus stood up without saying a word. He went over to the mirror again and looked in it. And there was the same image he had seen before: his reflection and the mirror-Sirius were now holding, kissing and touching each other. The look of his reflection was that of contentment and peace. The mirror-Sirius bore his usual cheeky smile, and Remus smiled back. He reached up and touched the mirror-Sirius on the cheek.
Oh God, he is so beautiful…and I desire him…and I made him cry. Oh no, I hit my best friend and made him cry.
Tears filled up in his eyes, and he stared at the mirror-Sirius in silence through blurry eyes. He had even begun to forget he was even in the room. He was awakened from his thoughts when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
Lily asked him softly, “It's Sirius in the mirror, isn’t?”
Without thinking, Remus nodded.
“You do desire him, then?”
Remus nodded more furiously this time, still staring at the mirror. “Yeah. Something did happen between us last week. I don’t want to tell you, but I can say that it was absolutely wonderful. But I pushed him away, Lily. We got close again today--not as close as last week, but still close, and once again, I pushed him away. When he tried to talk to me today, not only did I push him, but I punched him in the process.” The memory of the incident caused the tears that were welling up in his eyes to finally fall. He slowly slid down to the floor until he was curled up on the floor like a baby. “I swear I never meant to hit him.”
Lily sat down on the floor next to him and gathered him in her arms, placing his head on her chest. She stroked his hair gently and beckoned James to come over. James walked over to the mirror and sat down on the other side of the werewolf.
“We believe you, mate,” James said calmly.
Lily soothed, “There’s no need to cry, love.”
Remus sobbed, “It’s just…what we did…was so…dirty!”
Lily simply said, “Dirty! What is so dirty about wanting to be close to the one you love?”
Remus did not say a word for a while, but eventually he sighed and said, “I would like to be on my own for a while, please.”
James started to say, “But Remy…” but the werewolf repeated himself, “I would like to be on my own for a while please.”
James and Lily looked at each other over the werewolf, and nodded together in agreement. Lily gently placed Remus’ head on the floor, and she stood up. James stood up as well and took her hand. They both walked over to the entrance and before leaving the room completely, they looked back at their friend who was curled up on the floor. Not knowing what to say, they left the room, leaving the werewolf to his thoughts.
To be concluded…