not dead yet

[lady_pathos]

sooo for i haven't been on for a long time. well here is some stuff for you all to chew on. iffen you care to bite into my life. i'm 21 going on 22 pretty soon. i still live in the student apts..as of now i want to move off campus. i don't go home often. i don't have a car or lisence still. my room is still wonderfully dark. i changed my major to english and i have 8 more classes to take before i graduate. then i'm going to school at wyan state for library sciance. thats right i'll be the crazy librarian you kidds are in awe of. i have a learning disability which prompted my majior change. so lets hope i do ok..my other back up plan ..isn't at all that plesant. think i might minor in art. sill dark ...still depressed oh i haven't cut in some years. yeah still want to. un my mom is slowly letting go of me...er mostly because of forse. my sis graduated and is going to wayne. me and my cuz are still as close as ever. she and i find ways to visit one another. i have three classes lov them all. president of the GSA and member of many other org. er..kinda talking to this guy but i'm really not expecting it to last long. ^.^ i mean we are talking about me here. so yeah....

new poem for workshop..post the rewrite later..maybe
Hidden

can't let you in
to see all of me
the taint will
sicken you
bridges broken
damaged darkly
evil in disguise
paint a picture
i'll try and live that
lie
if you know all that i am
your picture will rot away
replaced by blood and shame
i sit in quiet disdain
few can handle the truth
what makes you not the same
i hide what i am for a reason
i can't stand your hurt and pain