Jun 24, 2010 22:50
♥ Although their marriage wasn't legal, she wears a ring of Eliade's. He said that they were married, and she considers herself both a murderess and a widow now.
♥ Her Eliade was a glorious looking man, who swept her off her feet easily. Long blond hair, beautiful muscles, and utterly dominant and masculine? What else could a girl ask for?
♥ She could have done without his cruelty, though. Eliade ruled her, and his behavior often bordered on abusive. But she endured it, for their love.
♥ She loves children, and wanted a family. The problem is, the man she believed that she would one day have children with is long gone. Not that he could father them in the first place. And she's still mourning him.
♥ It bothers her a little that people know her as a man, but not as a woman.
♥ She grew up feeling awkward and ugly. The only time she felt beautiful was when she was fighting for Eliade. She loved that she was his vampire, and that she could protect him and their love.
♥ But now that he's gone, she feels utterly hideous.
♥ She wears modified mourning garb under her exorcist's robes.
♥ She's determined to never love again. But her heart has other ideas, and she's recently had some uncomfortable feelings surrounding Lavi.
♥ And she hates herself for every warm feeling he's able to give her. It's her fault, obviously. And she considers herself a harlot because of it.
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