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this whole getting back into things is really hard. i just have to straighten out so much. i am going to lose my mind. sometimes i wonder if i should have just taken my aunts offer to have a short vacation at her place in Montana instead of staying in rochester. i am a little glad that i didnt because i would just have to come back to it all anyways and i wouldnt get the chance to talk to some friends that i kinda just left out there and i got the chance to talk to some old friends that i havent seen in a while. i am really happy because marco and i are friends, we are working on being good friends. i have never done that before with someone i dated (well not that i dated that many people but you get the point) and it feels really good. its hard sometimes because we are both very well i guess not used to this whole thing. its very new to the both of us. i am just really happy that we can try to do this, we talked about it and know that it wont happen over night. i really like the thought that we can still be close friends instead of trying to avoid each other. so aside from that things are starting to fall into place but not easily. i am just trying to keep things to one day at a time.