From Nintendo 3DS On March 31ST, 2013
I don't really think that it matters if I update. But I might as well. I have been ridiculously low, and a lot of distractions haven't been working. This is a type of distraction too, so again I might as well
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→Tomorrow is Lydia's 2ND birthday. 'Terrible twos', April Fool's, & Easter Monday.
→Also this week is Martin's & Armadei's birthdays! I have things to mail out, but I can't until next Thursday (especially since Small Packet Ground got discontinued). I'll probably post a picture of alchemy_hisoka's on the day of though ^^;
→April 19TH is Minnow's 9TH birthday.
→May 5TH is the day I celebrate Nicolas' 3RD birthday. The vets' figure he was born in May, and thus they use the day of the month's number. So 05/05.
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→@mimsgiggles on Twitter played an Ask.FM Choose Your Own Adventure with me last week. I played a knight that helped an old man, got scammed by an innkeeper, got imprisoned by a woman, got my arm ripped-off by a cerberus, then watched it choke and die on said arm, helped another old man, got the arm restored, fought a wizard, and got control over a whole castle or wealth. { http://ask.fm/LadyNoremon } is where it can be read, but I'm planning on uploading it to Ladys_Rambles for archival purposes.
→Also now @rquinta is playing another one with me. It's a horror story though, and perhaps unwisely I'm playing it out using Lorel. Lorrie doesn't due well with supernatural things, so this will be interesting. I haven't played her for almost a year (I'm counting the Saunder story), but it's like riding a bicycle (but given that Lorrie is who she is due to the friends she had and such, I won't be playing her often). My detective seemed more suitable than me for the mystery it started as (waking-up in a seedy hotel room, finding a dagger in a Bible, climbing out a window), but it didn't turn more horror until I had already started. But she already stalled the plot by refusing to go into a pitch-black hallway with eerie music coming from it. Also she dropped-off a 2ND story balcony in order not to deal with what may have been a ghost. Rebecca is busy right now (and again stalled the plot by not doing the expected thing), but I hope to get back into it. { http://ask.fm/LadyNoremon }
→I won't get into my anxieties or anything right now though. But I again I am very low & upset. Hell, I even wrote in a bug report because I didn't want to believe I was Blocked somewhere. That they hate me enough to write in to have me Blocked. Being on Twitter has been hard, and there is constant fear. I feel so unprotected, like standing in a field during a storm as lighting hits around me. Lies about people sending me postal mail make me angry. The family stuff is hurtful. Text-messages not working with someone is making me anxious, and the more it goes one, the more anxious I get. And there is a coiling fear they are working but it's being said they aren't. Because I remember all the ignored ones I've sent to others in the past & the not working IMs (I was even desperate enough to ask again if anyone was about to ramble on anything, even though that never worked before and was just ignored. It didn't get response these times either, and I've given-up). And there is still the whole 'it doesn't really matter' about how I feel, and in many cases I know it doesn't. Nothing will stop or get better even if I'm curled-up in a ball crying & feeling like I'm kicked in the stomach. So I am very low, things don't balance out, and many things seem futile (including myself). I have such little energy to do things. And I try to do light things like play "Theme Hospital" to get me calm to do other things, but things aren't working. Or even if I think they have there are the dreams or something else happens. And I'm so, so tired.
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