Late, as usual
I totally missed writing about 2005 at the height of the sentiment. But what was there to write? Last miserable days of college spent in cold, unfriendly UPSE. The horror of waking up to the harsh reality that being a Magna Cum Laude can actually be bad for you as you begin to look for work. The struggle to keep what had been a perfect relationship alive. And of course, miscellaneous family worries that just keep getting worse with each passing week. Work has been a boon for me... I've figured out why I've been spending so much time in the office. Because compared to life and love, banking is peanuts.
I *know* I will regret not going back to sleep later as I agonize over financial statements, but I just have to write. Just when I thought I was getting a dose of reality, I see it happen to other people in full force and I get educated. Funny how the cosmos works. I want so desperately to be strong like Mandy and his family. I wish there was a manual that could teach me how.
Maybe I have gotten stronger. The newest developments in this joke of a life don't terrify me anymore. And I've stopped coating everything with drama to preserve my poor heart.
* * *
2006 will be the year I get my life back. I have obviously been underachieving. Maybe some of you will disagree violently with me, pero kulang ako sa yabang. I have thought so little of myself these past few years, and I've begun to believe it. I used to be outspoken. I used to be fearless. I used to dream in frightening proportions.
And since this alone is a pretty tall order, I won't make other resolutions. Just watch me conquer the world, people.
I *know* I will regret not going back to sleep later as I agonize over financial statements, but I just have to write. Just when I thought I was getting a dose of reality, I see it happen to other people in full force and I get educated. Funny how the cosmos works. I want so desperately to be strong like Mandy and his family. I wish there was a manual that could teach me how.
Maybe I have gotten stronger. The newest developments in this joke of a life don't terrify me anymore. And I've stopped coating everything with drama to preserve my poor heart.
* * *
2006 will be the year I get my life back. I have obviously been underachieving. Maybe some of you will disagree violently with me, pero kulang ako sa yabang. I have thought so little of myself these past few years, and I've begun to believe it. I used to be outspoken. I used to be fearless. I used to dream in frightening proportions.
And since this alone is a pretty tall order, I won't make other resolutions. Just watch me conquer the world, people.