Whad'tha Catholics call it? Repentance? Yeah, that stuff.
Repentance, i.e., heartfelt sorrow with the firm purpose of sinning no more.
So, Bristol season is coming up, and I need to get some things off my chest. Because I feel guilty, and ashamed, and also a bit self-righteous. I want to save face, too. This isn't an altruistic act, by any means.
There may be a certain amount of animosty attached to my name from here on out. I wish to let it be known in simple terms what happened.
I am not begging forgiveness, nor claiming innocence. But I have no desire to act and feel as I did when I committed these acts, and since I don't have the faith to confess to a priest or to a deity, I shall make a general confession that will, undoubtedly, seem like attention-grubbing. But as the definition says above. I truly feel awful for what I've done, and have been working hard to assure I don't do things like them again.
Now, in simple terms.
I had sex with my best friend's boyfriend, twice. And I didn't tell her until half a year after.
Also;
I left my then-boyfriend with an apartment, and nearly all my belongings, to run off with another man.
I will not defend myself. I will say that since figuring out just how much I hated myself for doing those things, and other things that were similar in nature, I've changed a lot about my actions and mindset.
I've managed to regain peace with my ex, but my best friend of then has not forgiven me, and from my understanding, has expressed a certain degree of hatred towards me.
I am really, truly, deeply regretful for how much I have hurt people. I would like to make it better, but I can't. I can only stop from ever doing it again.
I don't want to lose any more friendships over this. I am asking, very selfishly, that if you hear things being said about me, that you form your own opinion taking this post into account. I am not who I was. I can say that with conviction. I do not want to be that person ever again.
Thank you all for tuning in, and have a good night.
So, Bristol season is coming up, and I need to get some things off my chest. Because I feel guilty, and ashamed, and also a bit self-righteous. I want to save face, too. This isn't an altruistic act, by any means.
There may be a certain amount of animosty attached to my name from here on out. I wish to let it be known in simple terms what happened.
I am not begging forgiveness, nor claiming innocence. But I have no desire to act and feel as I did when I committed these acts, and since I don't have the faith to confess to a priest or to a deity, I shall make a general confession that will, undoubtedly, seem like attention-grubbing. But as the definition says above. I truly feel awful for what I've done, and have been working hard to assure I don't do things like them again.
Now, in simple terms.
I had sex with my best friend's boyfriend, twice. And I didn't tell her until half a year after.
Also;
I left my then-boyfriend with an apartment, and nearly all my belongings, to run off with another man.
I will not defend myself. I will say that since figuring out just how much I hated myself for doing those things, and other things that were similar in nature, I've changed a lot about my actions and mindset.
I've managed to regain peace with my ex, but my best friend of then has not forgiven me, and from my understanding, has expressed a certain degree of hatred towards me.
I am really, truly, deeply regretful for how much I have hurt people. I would like to make it better, but I can't. I can only stop from ever doing it again.
I don't want to lose any more friendships over this. I am asking, very selfishly, that if you hear things being said about me, that you form your own opinion taking this post into account. I am not who I was. I can say that with conviction. I do not want to be that person ever again.
Thank you all for tuning in, and have a good night.