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it feels like I'm always waiting..it's like I work and do things to get to an end result. I find myself saying to myself...just get through work today and then
it'll be ok and then get through this..and that etc etc..and then today I followed the trail of just get throughs in my mind and I couldn't figure out what I was getting through for. I couldn't think of anything except..when I'd finally be able to rest...and then I figured out that the time I will get to rest my messed up brain is when I'm dead.
It wasn't really a sad thought..but not perfectly pleasant either.
Sick of being disappointed.
in myself and the flow of things
Mostly I'm sick of all this negativity in me and everywhere I go
~ladymoon~
it'll be ok and then get through this..and that etc etc..and then today I followed the trail of just get throughs in my mind and I couldn't figure out what I was getting through for. I couldn't think of anything except..when I'd finally be able to rest...and then I figured out that the time I will get to rest my messed up brain is when I'm dead.
It wasn't really a sad thought..but not perfectly pleasant either.
Sick of being disappointed.
in myself and the flow of things
Mostly I'm sick of all this negativity in me and everywhere I go
~ladymoon~