Don't cry, beautiful
Inspired by the pictures of Heechul crying during Super Show II In Beijing...
Title : Don't cry, beautiful
Pairing : Close Friendship!Hanchul & Sihan if you really want to see where I implied them
Rated : G
Disclaimer: As much as I would like it, they're not mine
It was hard, standing there, seeing those masses of blue lights, singing songs meant to say the group would be one, whole entity for eternity… How could they still sing such songs, while three of theirs were not with them?
Okay, Kibum, they all knew he wasn’t gone, he was there with them by mind and heart, fulfilling his dream of being an actor… how could you be mad at him for that, huh? He would come back soon, and you will have one of your favourite dongsaengs back with you.
Kangin… he would come back soon, wouldn’t he? He had learned his lesson and the sentence had been publicized and fans are waiting for him to comeback… as much as you guys do, especially Leeteuk, who was barely managing everything on his own, without his favourite racoon by his side.
But…
Kyungie… will he come back?
You guys are in the place he mostly grew up into, his own city, where he studied and in which his family is living… Super Junior is there, in this stadium, as popular as you are, because he was with you all along… This country he had always been so proud of… Those fans, waving those panels with his name on it, loving him to no end… Always there for him, they had said… and they were true to their word.
You know you’re the one who gave him the little push he needed to act, to fill this lawsuit. But could you have done something else? You care so much for him; no matter how many times you were on his back, teasing him. As much as he hid his sickness to the rest of you, you weren’t surprised at all when Siwon admitted the seriousness of it behind Hannie’s back… It was slowly killing him, how could you have let him go on like this? You knew he didn’t want to hurt you, the group, the fans… but he was hurting himself…
You can’t stand it anymore, your heart crushing inside, and Leeteuk’s soft sobs into the microphone… it’s killing you…
Before you even know it, you feel tears running down your cheeks and your lip tremble. Sobs are ripping out of your throat and you can’t even control them. You know you look miserable, you know you should be happy to be on stage… but you had waited for so long to be on this particular stage, to see this Chinese man you like so much… being himself. China had always given him a little something more, and his city, even more… How you had yearned to see him like that, for you cared so much for him, you only wanted him to be happy, a little more carefree…
You kept thinking and thinking, and you were crying your eyes out… and as the song ended, you could swear you saw him… right there, in the emergency exit… his silhouette… it was him for sure, no one could look like him this much, even if they were 1.3 billions in this country…. It was him…
Then suddenly he turned his back and left, without a sign, without anything.
You were still deeply affected, even though you saw him. Fans were screaming for you, trying to calm you down, and the members stood there, totally incapable of doing anything, they were hurting, too. You were sure you saw Siwon look up to the ceiling to keep himself from shedding tears….
The show was over quicker than you thought it would and as everyone were hugging and congratulating themselves for the quality of the concert, you went in a corner and started seeking for something in your bag in order to change your mind, until your hand landed on your cell phone, and you felt it vibrate. Pulling it out and looking for the text message you had received, you felt tears building up in your eyes once again, even if you were smiling.
“Don’t cry, beautiful, or I’ll never forgive myself”
Oh that Han Geng… There’s is only one like that and you had to pick him as one of your closest friends, didn’t you?