aaaahhh what's wrong with me?!
What is it with me and the japanese culture??
It's a bizarre obessesion that I'm just beginning to confront after realizing it was an obsession. I guess I had been in denial for a long time, but Dustin began to tease my interest and I realized how strong it really was.
I watch A LOT of anime. Half of the time I hate it but I sit through and watch it because it was made in Japan.
And I make sure to learn the words to every anime theme song I hear.
I listen to Japanese Pop and I HATE POP.
But i do listen to Japanese rock and that ROCKS.
I watch Iron Chef just to listen to them speak in their language. I usually forget half the time what the main ingredient is and what they created by the end.
I'll watch anything with Gackt in it, even if its the worst possible shit made possible.
And don't even get me started on asian guys.....*rolleyes* Majority of them I could fall for within an instant. I have a few online asian guyfriends but i haven't talked to them in awhile for 1)if i become closer with any of them (which i doubt they all seem to be party guys) that could really effect my feelings for dustin and 2)i love dustin and i just would feel wrong being so talkative and flirtatious with them.
I LOVE Lost In Translation and after watching it for the umpteenth time, I feel even more of a strong urge to go to Tokyo.
Today I just searched for hotel and flight packages and wrote a list of the cheapest and decent ones. I intend to save up money from working for it. Knowing dustin although he gets bonuses that each one could pay for the entire package and then some, I know he wouldn't want to spend his money like that. He doesn't even want to go, but he's willing to go for me. So i think this is something i'll have to save on my own.
I guess we'll have to see.
But back to the topic beforehand.
Maybe I should see a therapist. I dunno what's wrong with me.
I'm not feeling too good so i'm gonna go lay down now. :\
It's a bizarre obessesion that I'm just beginning to confront after realizing it was an obsession. I guess I had been in denial for a long time, but Dustin began to tease my interest and I realized how strong it really was.
I watch A LOT of anime. Half of the time I hate it but I sit through and watch it because it was made in Japan.
And I make sure to learn the words to every anime theme song I hear.
I listen to Japanese Pop and I HATE POP.
But i do listen to Japanese rock and that ROCKS.
I watch Iron Chef just to listen to them speak in their language. I usually forget half the time what the main ingredient is and what they created by the end.
I'll watch anything with Gackt in it, even if its the worst possible shit made possible.
And don't even get me started on asian guys.....*rolleyes* Majority of them I could fall for within an instant. I have a few online asian guyfriends but i haven't talked to them in awhile for 1)if i become closer with any of them (which i doubt they all seem to be party guys) that could really effect my feelings for dustin and 2)i love dustin and i just would feel wrong being so talkative and flirtatious with them.
I LOVE Lost In Translation and after watching it for the umpteenth time, I feel even more of a strong urge to go to Tokyo.
Today I just searched for hotel and flight packages and wrote a list of the cheapest and decent ones. I intend to save up money from working for it. Knowing dustin although he gets bonuses that each one could pay for the entire package and then some, I know he wouldn't want to spend his money like that. He doesn't even want to go, but he's willing to go for me. So i think this is something i'll have to save on my own.
I guess we'll have to see.
But back to the topic beforehand.
Maybe I should see a therapist. I dunno what's wrong with me.
I'm not feeling too good so i'm gonna go lay down now. :\