awkward alone time together
I feel like my life is kinda boring right now. i don't know what to do with my little self. I'm chilling here. I've read a bit of Marquez and hank is already asleep. what an old man. I don't want to be old though. I want to be young and have a good old time. I was really enjoying living here just the two of us, but since i've been back from austin i;ve come back with some negative energy. it's too bad because i felt like I had all my ducks in a row in a very nice way. I was entertained with the house and with hank, work and school. Now i just feel boredom and I feel slightly disconnected to my boy. it's been so quite in the house. it was too much for me to handle the other night. I left kinda upset with his silence. At the same time though, i've been feeling quite settled and silent too. it's just weird that we are both having our sort of "alone time" together in one room. During my alone time there is no talking are cuddling or this or that. I sit or lay down. I listen to the radio quietly and make dinner. Start up a craft or a drawing. la di da. lately i find it hard to enjoy these things and that sort of time when he is in the room. Are schedules are just very similar right now. i'm not use to it. what if things aren't spicy enough? am i lame yet?