A Month...
Its amazing what a month can be like, how everything in your life can change and you can re prioritize and gain a whole new perspective on everything. I dont think i will ever see anything again ever the way i used to. It's made me realize exactly how precious life is and thoose we love. Too have at times come so close to loosing everything has been in someways good for me, I now know what it is that i want and i can stand up for it....
Its so hard somedays to see J, when he asks you about the last month, what happened? What has he missed? What was wrong with him? And of course the best one "Whats going on with you and my parents? What excatly did i miss there?" For him that convinces him he woke up to an alternate universe. My poor guy...It is an alternative world for him, to relearn so many things, to begin the process of walking again, to learn the sense of taste again, to have that heightened sense of sound and touch. Everything is different. He can't believe the things that he sees, the trees, the flowers, beds , he'll stare and everything for ages and try to play connect the dots with so many things. And yet he tries so hard, cause hes such an amazing fighter who will never give up and will be *cough* independent*cough* all the time (well thats what his mum wants).
All in all he hasnt lost that brilliant sense of humour that he has, he'll still sit there and joke with the nurses, people watch from his ward and pass the most ridiculous remarks. He'll laugh , and smile the biggest smile you could ever imagine for anything. Such that you can sit opposite him and all you can do is smile back at him cause despite everything he is still the most loving cheerful person ever.
Someone told me that this will have changed him for life. Of course it will - he has a life, thats what it will do. He loves us all the same, he still wants the same things from life, the same dreams, he wants to be able to go home, to walk, to drive his car, play with his dog,have fun with Oly, Mike and Rob, go travel the world with me, have that family hes always dreamed off... fame and fortune was never him and it never will be...J just wants the his life back...and he's going to get it back...we're going to get our lives back...together..small steps but we'll get there in the end.
Its so hard somedays to see J, when he asks you about the last month, what happened? What has he missed? What was wrong with him? And of course the best one "Whats going on with you and my parents? What excatly did i miss there?" For him that convinces him he woke up to an alternate universe. My poor guy...It is an alternative world for him, to relearn so many things, to begin the process of walking again, to learn the sense of taste again, to have that heightened sense of sound and touch. Everything is different. He can't believe the things that he sees, the trees, the flowers, beds , he'll stare and everything for ages and try to play connect the dots with so many things. And yet he tries so hard, cause hes such an amazing fighter who will never give up and will be *cough* independent*cough* all the time (well thats what his mum wants).
All in all he hasnt lost that brilliant sense of humour that he has, he'll still sit there and joke with the nurses, people watch from his ward and pass the most ridiculous remarks. He'll laugh , and smile the biggest smile you could ever imagine for anything. Such that you can sit opposite him and all you can do is smile back at him cause despite everything he is still the most loving cheerful person ever.
Someone told me that this will have changed him for life. Of course it will - he has a life, thats what it will do. He loves us all the same, he still wants the same things from life, the same dreams, he wants to be able to go home, to walk, to drive his car, play with his dog,have fun with Oly, Mike and Rob, go travel the world with me, have that family hes always dreamed off... fame and fortune was never him and it never will be...J just wants the his life back...and he's going to get it back...we're going to get our lives back...together..small steps but we'll get there in the end.