This bites uber monkey balls.
I'm finding out the hard way what it is that is really, truly missing from my life. Why it feels so cold and boring. Why I never get excited about anything or laugh out loud anymore. I thought, I honestly did, that it was because of a serious lack of Jake. But I really don't think so anymore.
It's my friends. It is most definitely my friends. The people that I love as sisters and used to see every single day. The people I grew up with and laughed with and cried with screamed with and made memories with. I just don't have people like that in college. I mean, it makes sense because it's only one semester compared to a decade, but still.
Thankfully I'm beginning to get close to a few people from Ashland now. I'm not so alone anymore. It's just that I never realized being alone would have such a ridiculous impact on me. I'm simply a happier person the days that I get to work with Holly, have class with Tiff or talk to Jamie on the phone. Thank God I still get to see my sister everyday or I think I would lose my mind. She may be my little sister but she is also one of my best, if not the best, friend. I don't get to see her as often as I would like, but little is better than none.
So, my beloved friends (Ashlee, Jame, Tiff, Holly, Kelly, Vicki, Kristine, the boys, some of the rest of my class, the drumline and the rest of the band geeks), I miss you all so much right now. You have no idea.
When other relationships crumble beneath my feet, even the ones that I thought would last forever, I still have my friendships. I know that these will last forever. I love you all so much and thank you from the depths of my wandering soul.
It's my friends. It is most definitely my friends. The people that I love as sisters and used to see every single day. The people I grew up with and laughed with and cried with screamed with and made memories with. I just don't have people like that in college. I mean, it makes sense because it's only one semester compared to a decade, but still.
Thankfully I'm beginning to get close to a few people from Ashland now. I'm not so alone anymore. It's just that I never realized being alone would have such a ridiculous impact on me. I'm simply a happier person the days that I get to work with Holly, have class with Tiff or talk to Jamie on the phone. Thank God I still get to see my sister everyday or I think I would lose my mind. She may be my little sister but she is also one of my best, if not the best, friend. I don't get to see her as often as I would like, but little is better than none.
So, my beloved friends (Ashlee, Jame, Tiff, Holly, Kelly, Vicki, Kristine, the boys, some of the rest of my class, the drumline and the rest of the band geeks), I miss you all so much right now. You have no idea.
When other relationships crumble beneath my feet, even the ones that I thought would last forever, I still have my friendships. I know that these will last forever. I love you all so much and thank you from the depths of my wandering soul.