It has been 5 years...
Holy cow it has been 5 years that I have been ignoring LJ mostly because not many are still on here. But reading through my posts made me realize that maybe I should start again. So here I am.
So much has happened in the last 5 years it seems scary. I have gotten on SSD and Medicare. I also have a wonderful supplement for medications and other things Medicare doesn't cover. I have been steadily on my psych meds for several years with little to no change as they are working great. I am truly blessed to be able to have this insurance.
I have also gotten in with the BJC Mental Health offices and have a steady support network there. Things are really on track. I have been very stable and have many skills to utilize when things go off. As they will for the rest of my life, however as of the last few years they have been mild or I handle them in the way so as to not make things worse. Riding the waves and learning to serf. I have even begun to see that I have become happy. That was a shock for me. Almost like when I learned what sad was. I am so comfortable with who I am and can even say I love myself. That right there was a HUGE step for me. Before I have always hated myself. But now thanks to friends and counseling I have become someone who I really love. I am really happy with who I am now. Big stuff for me. All that happened in the last year or so.
I have things I still need to work on as I always will, but the future is looking bright for me. Unless I catch this virus and loose that fight. I have at least 4 of the things that mean I could have a hard time surviving this stupid Corona virus thing. But I am trying not to dwell on that. Just taking all the precautions I can and hoping for the best.
This is all for now and I hope to write more again soon but my track record is bad for that.
So much has happened in the last 5 years it seems scary. I have gotten on SSD and Medicare. I also have a wonderful supplement for medications and other things Medicare doesn't cover. I have been steadily on my psych meds for several years with little to no change as they are working great. I am truly blessed to be able to have this insurance.
I have also gotten in with the BJC Mental Health offices and have a steady support network there. Things are really on track. I have been very stable and have many skills to utilize when things go off. As they will for the rest of my life, however as of the last few years they have been mild or I handle them in the way so as to not make things worse. Riding the waves and learning to serf. I have even begun to see that I have become happy. That was a shock for me. Almost like when I learned what sad was. I am so comfortable with who I am and can even say I love myself. That right there was a HUGE step for me. Before I have always hated myself. But now thanks to friends and counseling I have become someone who I really love. I am really happy with who I am now. Big stuff for me. All that happened in the last year or so.
I have things I still need to work on as I always will, but the future is looking bright for me. Unless I catch this virus and loose that fight. I have at least 4 of the things that mean I could have a hard time surviving this stupid Corona virus thing. But I am trying not to dwell on that. Just taking all the precautions I can and hoping for the best.
This is all for now and I hope to write more again soon but my track record is bad for that.