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I cleaned all my past entries out of thing. First of all, let me say that it was a difficult task; I had to delete each one individuallly, over 100 entries, because there is no way to delete them en masse, or I lack the understanding of Livejournal's inner workings to figure how to do such a thing. Needless to say, it took a long time and was comparable to pulling teeth, but it was a necessary thing to do because the past in the past, and, in my case, hardly worth acknowledgement. I say, fuck the past. No, I say, fuck my past.
The truth is, I was a dumb little shit. I was needy and self-absorbed, and as much as I liked to pride myself on being sigmificantly more intelligent than your average high schooler, I hadn't a relevant thought in my messed-up little head. As such, I said innappropriate and sometimes incomprehensible things, mostly in the form of a complaint or pathetic cry for attention. Often I would call people out or make awkward comments about myself and others. And I wondered why no one liked me.
Well, now I am twenty, and though I still have the occasional "I hate myself" moment, I at least have decency to keep them to myself. Yes, I have changed. Hoofuckinray. But now I am tired, and thus will save the riveting details of my life as an adult for another day. Goodnight.
The truth is, I was a dumb little shit. I was needy and self-absorbed, and as much as I liked to pride myself on being sigmificantly more intelligent than your average high schooler, I hadn't a relevant thought in my messed-up little head. As such, I said innappropriate and sometimes incomprehensible things, mostly in the form of a complaint or pathetic cry for attention. Often I would call people out or make awkward comments about myself and others. And I wondered why no one liked me.
Well, now I am twenty, and though I still have the occasional "I hate myself" moment, I at least have decency to keep them to myself. Yes, I have changed. Hoofuckinray. But now I am tired, and thus will save the riveting details of my life as an adult for another day. Goodnight.