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random thing to say to get me started... "I LOVE DONNA!" lol. yeah. ok thats done.
i'm not feeling very smiley right now. to much confusion. i'm just getting all wrapped up in stupid stuff that i have no business worrying about. oh well.
blah blah blah. i'm bored. blah blah blah. i need to get my mind off useless crap and back on track. focus dielle focus.
i kinda started writing like 3 songs the other night. lol. yeah... its weird. you wanna know something ironic?
jared said to, "tell them the best way you can. if in person is a hindrance, tell them through song. use your emotion constructively." and it was pretty much about him. he is 'them' and he doesn't even know it. lol yeah. thats funny. hows that for irony. oh well
i dont want to get all hung up and sad about this. i just want to be happy that he is my friend and look forward to talking to him instead of worrying about how he feels about me. he loves me... that is enough. it doesn't matter what he means by it. as long as i just accept it at face value i dont have to worry about being hurt. its when i over analize and start to try to make it more than it is that i end up devestated. its all me really. anyway. i guess thats that. i've given it to God. i dont know why i cant stop thinking about it. but i've given it to God... there isn't anything else i can do. except wait.
i'm not feeling very smiley right now. to much confusion. i'm just getting all wrapped up in stupid stuff that i have no business worrying about. oh well.
blah blah blah. i'm bored. blah blah blah. i need to get my mind off useless crap and back on track. focus dielle focus.
i kinda started writing like 3 songs the other night. lol. yeah... its weird. you wanna know something ironic?
jared said to, "tell them the best way you can. if in person is a hindrance, tell them through song. use your emotion constructively." and it was pretty much about him. he is 'them' and he doesn't even know it. lol yeah. thats funny. hows that for irony. oh well
i dont want to get all hung up and sad about this. i just want to be happy that he is my friend and look forward to talking to him instead of worrying about how he feels about me. he loves me... that is enough. it doesn't matter what he means by it. as long as i just accept it at face value i dont have to worry about being hurt. its when i over analize and start to try to make it more than it is that i end up devestated. its all me really. anyway. i guess thats that. i've given it to God. i dont know why i cant stop thinking about it. but i've given it to God... there isn't anything else i can do. except wait.