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How did I get here? I don't know what to do with myself anymore. All the mundane, daily grind type activity; I'm really not sure it's worth it anymore. I can't handle all the bullshit...and I don't want to. I've fairly well screwed myself and I really wish I had the answers, or at least the capacity to make things right. I'm not strong enough for this-I don't have the endurance or the inclination. All I want to do right now is crawl under a rock and disappear. I don't know what I want, don't know what I need, but I know this isn't it. This is not working for me.