So they say it's your birthday......
So my birthday rollin in..the big twenty seven for those that keep score...only six more days..and I'm not even sure if I care.
NOt in that depressed way, but I feel like my birthday isn't speical anymore..it's just another day in the same endless cycle. People keep asking me what I want...and honistly I don't want anything..my mom had to force the answer out of me..I think it's just right now I feel wholy unremarkable, again not in a bad way..but I"m just another face in the croud, there's no shame in it..I'm another twenty something going back for her degree, I'll go to classes just like I always do, there's going to be no cake, no nothing on my birthday..I don't even think I"m going to be going out to dinner with my folks.
It a surreal feeling, knowing that your day i going to be unremarkable, plain ol' in every way...have I truly become such a ghost that I don't care that my own birtday is comming up? oh well....
NOt in that depressed way, but I feel like my birthday isn't speical anymore..it's just another day in the same endless cycle. People keep asking me what I want...and honistly I don't want anything..my mom had to force the answer out of me..I think it's just right now I feel wholy unremarkable, again not in a bad way..but I"m just another face in the croud, there's no shame in it..I'm another twenty something going back for her degree, I'll go to classes just like I always do, there's going to be no cake, no nothing on my birthday..I don't even think I"m going to be going out to dinner with my folks.
It a surreal feeling, knowing that your day i going to be unremarkable, plain ol' in every way...have I truly become such a ghost that I don't care that my own birtday is comming up? oh well....