Finaly a real Update
So, It's november..and I'm finaly back to work....my life is getting normal as I work fourty eight hours in four days a week..so sorry kids, no Kanar for me. For those taht care my schedule is Sat Sun, Mon Tues. With the rest fo the week off. Kind of good, and Kind of bad..but no matter, I'm back on the rig where I belong..I don't feel like jabba the hut ona chouch anymore.
On my personal life...things are looking up, someone has poked out of the sand who is kind and sweet..and treats me really nice, even though our schedules clash like crazy, at least it's nice to go out with someone who feels really attracted. He's a millitant non somker, but that's no matter, we will find a compromise. If there is a will there is way.
Feeling...how the fuck am I feeling, that's a hard question these days..I mean I feel happy sometimes, and sad sometimes, angry most of the time...I'm such a strange mix of chemicals that make up the soul. But for you that know me, I am strange, I will always be strange. I have to say, now that I'm back on the Rig, I'm really happy I think everyone is happy when they feel like they have a purpose. Honistly the last five months have been a real trial. Mostly because of my self imposed Exile. I needed it though, weakness is something I don't tolerate in myself, everyone else can be as weak as they want, but in myself..I can't stand being weak. And I spent five months being weak. Always in pain, not able to do things for myself..it was tough.
But all and all it's going great, I start my degree in Emergency Medical Tech. in January. And I can't wait! Finaly I'm going to be a paramedic :) And I'm going to earn that peice of paper that says I am one.
At anyrate, I'm back in the world, feel free to ask me out and about, I'll try and make time for everyone
LC
On my personal life...things are looking up, someone has poked out of the sand who is kind and sweet..and treats me really nice, even though our schedules clash like crazy, at least it's nice to go out with someone who feels really attracted. He's a millitant non somker, but that's no matter, we will find a compromise. If there is a will there is way.
Feeling...how the fuck am I feeling, that's a hard question these days..I mean I feel happy sometimes, and sad sometimes, angry most of the time...I'm such a strange mix of chemicals that make up the soul. But for you that know me, I am strange, I will always be strange. I have to say, now that I'm back on the Rig, I'm really happy I think everyone is happy when they feel like they have a purpose. Honistly the last five months have been a real trial. Mostly because of my self imposed Exile. I needed it though, weakness is something I don't tolerate in myself, everyone else can be as weak as they want, but in myself..I can't stand being weak. And I spent five months being weak. Always in pain, not able to do things for myself..it was tough.
But all and all it's going great, I start my degree in Emergency Medical Tech. in January. And I can't wait! Finaly I'm going to be a paramedic :) And I'm going to earn that peice of paper that says I am one.
At anyrate, I'm back in the world, feel free to ask me out and about, I'll try and make time for everyone
LC