looking up
WoW!! I have gone wrong in so many ways. I have royally screwed up my life. All I can do now is sit down and make a plan and think think think and figure out how I am going to fix shit. Is it too late? Am I past the point of return? Do I suffer in my own misery and move on or do I go back and glue things back together. I need to simplify. I need to resize. I need to re-prioritize. I know what's important to me, but how do i make it all come together? How do I get rid of it all? How do I sew it back together? Do I take that big leap or do I play is safe and boring? Why do i loose it? How did I get so lost on my journey? I really feel this is not where I was ment to end up. When did I start to take that wrong turn? Was there a fork in the road that I missed somewhere along the way. OR maybe I was ment to hit bottom that way I can know what it is like to get up. I need to learn from these mistakes thats for sure.