"Pray as if everything depends on God, but live each day as though everything depends on us."
I heard that saying once from a wise rabbi. Those words are ringing more and more true with each passing day...
(This entry is dedicated to my friend Ari--thanks for talking some serious sense into me <3 )
I've behaved foolishly these last couple of days/weeks. Here's a belated new years resolution...
Okay, so I'm SERIOUSLY going to stop with the bad posts about my ex (for real this time, guys--I swear!). Ari helped me realize two things:
1) If Jesse had a tendency to lose his cool when we were dating and I did something that pissed him off, he'd certainly lose it now--especially since we're now both stuck in the same philosophy class.
2) I'm never going to truly be able to move on if I'm so motivated by revenge. Sometimes revenge gets you going and up and running, but you typically run head first into a wall.
He's right. I do have other things that I need to be more concerned with. I mean, I start applying to lawschool next year and need to start start cracking on my personal statement and studying for the LSATs.
I need to move on.
I guess everything does happen for a reason. If nothing else, I learned three things from my relationship with Jesse:
1) Exactly what I DON'T want to be/become.
2) Exactly the type of relationship I DON'T want.
3) What happens when you take everything for granted.
I'm gonna make sure that for the new year, each day means something special. I gotta make it matter. I guess with me especially---the damage I did to my heart (because of a few really poor choices made in past years), the positive tests for the Lupus antibodies...I mean, God has helped me fight so much, I should...
1) Trust Him to see everything else through. Jesse is gonna get what he has coming.
2) Just go out there and totally rock it! Like the Bible says, "To whom much is given, much will be required." God can take it all away from me in a flash if he felt so compelled, but he's let me keep it. I want to make it matter.
(This entry is dedicated to my friend Ari--thanks for talking some serious sense into me <3 )
I've behaved foolishly these last couple of days/weeks. Here's a belated new years resolution...
Okay, so I'm SERIOUSLY going to stop with the bad posts about my ex (for real this time, guys--I swear!). Ari helped me realize two things:
1) If Jesse had a tendency to lose his cool when we were dating and I did something that pissed him off, he'd certainly lose it now--especially since we're now both stuck in the same philosophy class.
2) I'm never going to truly be able to move on if I'm so motivated by revenge. Sometimes revenge gets you going and up and running, but you typically run head first into a wall.
He's right. I do have other things that I need to be more concerned with. I mean, I start applying to lawschool next year and need to start start cracking on my personal statement and studying for the LSATs.
I need to move on.
I guess everything does happen for a reason. If nothing else, I learned three things from my relationship with Jesse:
1) Exactly what I DON'T want to be/become.
2) Exactly the type of relationship I DON'T want.
3) What happens when you take everything for granted.
I'm gonna make sure that for the new year, each day means something special. I gotta make it matter. I guess with me especially---the damage I did to my heart (because of a few really poor choices made in past years), the positive tests for the Lupus antibodies...I mean, God has helped me fight so much, I should...
1) Trust Him to see everything else through. Jesse is gonna get what he has coming.
2) Just go out there and totally rock it! Like the Bible says, "To whom much is given, much will be required." God can take it all away from me in a flash if he felt so compelled, but he's let me keep it. I want to make it matter.