Being in Love without Reciprocation sucks big giant salty balls....
Although my love is strong...I can't feel hurt anymore. Its getting out of hand; I've never been depressed but I imagine this is what it feels like. All I ever wanted to do was make her happy, make her smile, fulfill her dreams...it wasn't enough. Well if it wasn't then I dunno what is. I see my dad and my mom...my dad shoulda never had her. He's not a bad guy, but he's not the greatest either. The way he views life and women and everything is just completely the oposite of me. I'm sick of thoes kind of people finding love when a lover like myself can somehow grow apart from a true love. Its illogical in all respects. Sometimes I wish my heart would just stop, even if I don't get to see the look on peoples faces...thoes people who are supposed to care for me who love me...I get a sick twisted happiness out of the idea that they hurt and that they know what its like to lose something they love. I don't like feeling like that...it disgusts me. I wish I was loved, now more than ever.
David
David