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Click to viewok i should update.
first, cat never did come home. i'm pretty sad about it but life moves on, i guess. cleaning up her eating area and donating all her food was a shitty/necessary process to move on. a coyote ran out in the middle of the street yesterday and i almost hit it out of spite. but i'm not an asshole so i slowed down.
i went to bermuda, i have a stupid amount of pictures to post. my nana gave me a gold necklace that my boppa gave to my mimi (great grandpa and great grandma). cue blubbery cryface. in bermuda me and my nana gave the rest of some pizza we got to this homeless guy with a guitar and he played us a song called "yellow bird" and my nana told me that "yellow bird" was my mimi's favorite song. maybe the homeless guy was psychic. then at one of the "free cocktail" nights on the cruise they were serving yellow birds. i don't know what was in it but i took it as a sign and drank a lot of them.
my uncle bought me a point and shoot camera for my birthday. did i mention that? i just had a birthday. i'm 25 now. anyway, i missed taking videos because as much as i love to take pictures, sometimes it just doesn't get the moment right. i made a stupid little montage of my trip. the video is about 6 minutes long haha. i'm still working on it. i like that i can bring that little camera with me everywhere. my nikon, as much as i love it, is a pain to bring places.
i quit smoking. i'm pretty happy about that, but i find myself sneaking one sometimes.
as soon as i got home i jumped right back into work. i asked for a few days off so i can get a bunch of hospital visits done. i'm pretty sick of this hurting, or that aching, i feel like an 70 year old woman. but i miss my friends and people i haven't seen in like a month. the past few weeks have been pretty enlightening. i think maybe i'm having a quarter-life crisis but in a good way. i want to renew and enforce the good things and get rid of the bad things and the bad people, and people that really just don't have any place in my life but i think i hold onto memories. but they are just that, memories. andy warhol has a fantastic quote that makes me smile and upset at the same time and it goes "the best thing about a picture is that it never changes, even when the people in it do."