Whine, bitch,comlain, rant
Ok I've gotten to the fed up stage with the whole damn rib thing. I seem to be generally ok during the day, some pain but functioning anyway, and then evening hits and the muscle spasms come on like gang busters (Renee busters actually) Mattie suggested maybe the weather was affecting me, as soon as it starts to get cool out I start to hurt, great. Haven't posted before cause I couldn't think of much positive to say and I know how sick everyone gets of reading negative stuff. I feel like I ignored it the first few weeks until I couldn't anymore, and then for the last few weeks I've been babying it, not vacumming, not bending over and picking stuff up after kids. My apartment looks like a wreck, the back rooms particularly (laundry all over the place, scraps all over my crap room floor)Trying my best to help it heal faster, by not doing the things that hurt. Now I've just had it with all that, and I think I'll go back to ignoring it, at least I won't feel guilty about all the things piling up. I'm not gonna talk about it and we are gonna pretend that this injury never happened and never interupted my whole life. Yeah I am pretty pissed at myself for the whole thing, but we are gonna ignore that too. And yes I have reasons for this, we are gonna act positive on this and see the body as whole and healthy, that ought to trigger the bodies natural healing abilities to bring this about faster. No more babying myself, it isn't getting me anywhere except to constantly keep reminding myself of the reason for it, now who needs that constant reminder anyway. That just makes the whole thing worse. I thought I oughta record my thoughts on it, so I can look back and access the lesson from the whole thing at a later date. Given the location bets are that it is all involved with the heart chakra, and in meditation currently I am unable to get any energy through that area at all. Conective tissue to both the spine and the sternum is effected, swelling and pain in both front and back, so that would seem to indicate that it is both an emotional and a will power problem. I've used both green and blue energies on it but have trouble with remaining focused long enough to do any good. I did discover that silver hurts more than I can stand, which probly says something about my emotional state of accepting healing. ok thats the lot I think, enough that I can read it later and see what was going on. This is some kinda record for me I think, longest time I've been down and not able to heal it.