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yo. a bitch is sooooo confused right now. I just knew i was gonna move my ass back to jersey. but now, im not so sure. NO, it isnt because of dennis. he's not even in my focus right now. I want my OWN shit. i dont even really want to live with anyone at this point. I want to design my own shit. Live in my own shit. just do me in my own shit. And im pretty damn sure i cant afford jerz right now, by myself. I ain tryina be fightin with dennis every night, and have all this stank ass tension in my own damn house. no no no. not for me. I do want my son to grow up somewhere in the tri-state, but he's still young, i've got time. Im STILL lookin for a job, but it's nothin. Not having any money has forced me to change my bad ass eating habits. I been trying to eat less, drink more water, be a little bit more active, ect. ect. so i can get rid of these out of control ass love handles, and get my swagger back. I been getting out more. Meeting new people. feelin how i used to feel back in the day...my pre-married days. It's been marvelous. I been spending alot of time with wally (myyyy nigga, lmfao <3). I NEED to get back into school. And spending as much time as i have at the schools around my crib, im thinkin ima try to get back into a hbcu and skip all that community college yaya. I guess my only problem right now is i been smokin TOO damn much. There have been more than enough instances when i had $5 left, and instead of buying something that i need, like i dunno...FOOD...i go and cop a nic. I always said i was going to try to stop before nasir gets old enough to realize what im doing...so i guess i mind as well get it while i can. speakin of which, im about to go search my couch pillows and old purses for some change for a dutch. <3333