::sometimes I wake up, cryin at night::
I give up on boys... I'm so sick of being hurt, and afriad of being hurt that I hurt myself to lessen the pain. I miss so many people, so many things. I am disgustingly depressed right now. Sarah went back to college, Max totally ruined any respect I would even consider giving him anymore, Brian and I were over before we started, Jerry reminded me why I didn't want to be with him in the first place. Can't I just find a good NORMAL boy to keep me company?!?! I need to concentrait on ME right now. I need a job, and school and stuff like that... but no I sit around and wonder why I'm alone. I hate being just like my mother, hate it. But the past is the past. Time to start new.