Anger and Agression sets in
I think things are just too hectic. I think things are just too out of control. I can't focus on one thing at a time. I don't want to focus on anything. I got a fellowship. They said it was impossible because I've been in grad school too long but now they have to pay me for at least the next 3 years at or before which time I should be done. I am looking at an apartment tomorrow. It's so beautiful from the pictures and from the description that I am very excited. Yes, I decided to live by myself again. I don't think I can handle people, and I know for sure people can't handle me. In other thoughts, I love it when something can totally take your mind off everything else. Some things that I worried about even a few days ago, I don't care the least bit about now. Everyone, well not everyone, wants to hang out and I just want to be alone. I need time for myself. I have a lot of thinking to do and I need to get my mental health in check.