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How could I have forgotten to try to watch the venus transit? It's come and gone and I wasn't a part of it. Dumb. At least spaceweather.com is an amazing website and let me see what I missed.
In other news...something or someone motivated me to get some work done. Maybe it was just nice words. I'm back at the lab. It's after 9pm, I realized that there was something I could do before tomorrow. I don't really wanna go home. It's real lonely there and the nightmares keep me up at night. I only got two hours of sleep last night because I had another bad one that shook me real bad. I know I shouldn't be scared. Noone was in my house, noone was really knocking at my door, and those girls really weren't tormenting me. It was all a manifestation of the frustrations that I have.
In even other news...Storrs, CT stinks. Hardly anyone is around and as I grow older there is less and less for me in this area. Shit, I can't do anything about it until I get this degree or I decide to quit at the end of next May and get a job. That time is too far away for me to decide now.
I have a new outlook. It's called the 'don't get your hopes up' outlook. I know it seems really negative but I'm just real nervous...about everything I do. I think it might hinder my progress in things but until someone or something truly shows me that this outlook is ridiculous, then I'm probably not changing it.
In other news...something or someone motivated me to get some work done. Maybe it was just nice words. I'm back at the lab. It's after 9pm, I realized that there was something I could do before tomorrow. I don't really wanna go home. It's real lonely there and the nightmares keep me up at night. I only got two hours of sleep last night because I had another bad one that shook me real bad. I know I shouldn't be scared. Noone was in my house, noone was really knocking at my door, and those girls really weren't tormenting me. It was all a manifestation of the frustrations that I have.
In even other news...Storrs, CT stinks. Hardly anyone is around and as I grow older there is less and less for me in this area. Shit, I can't do anything about it until I get this degree or I decide to quit at the end of next May and get a job. That time is too far away for me to decide now.
I have a new outlook. It's called the 'don't get your hopes up' outlook. I know it seems really negative but I'm just real nervous...about everything I do. I think it might hinder my progress in things but until someone or something truly shows me that this outlook is ridiculous, then I'm probably not changing it.