that chocolate milk tasted funny...

[lacuna_spiral]

sigh.
today has been pointless. i probably shouldn't have even woken up. only bad has come from my consciousness.
sometimes i wish that i could just fall into a dream state and never wake up. live in a world of a coma. or something.

lately i've been feeling like i've become more distant from the people that i care about. or maybe once cared about.

stupid pants are too big.

i'm reading fight club right now. i really like how it's written. the main character is very interesting. i'd hate to have insomnia. music used to be my escape from this place but now it seems that the only thing that can do that is sleep. to be mentally gone. gone from this place.

being alive is so overrated.

i feel kind of tired right now.

i'm in the mood to listen to music but my stupid mp3 player exploded. kind of.

everyone is far away.

i think i might go on a walk.
that would be nice.
yes. that's what i'll do when i'm finished.

you. you. i'm sorry that i'm fucking messed up. i Really am. maybe we just shouldn't be friends. because it looks like i only hurt you more.

who knows.
nobody.

now for that walk...