what is this? What is this shit? :D
Sorry for the quality of the updates recently. Haha, they've been shitty haven't they? I kinda wore out my creative juices working on T3, so to balance myself out, everything in *this* journal has been about... Morning Musume ......... HAHAHAHAHA! HIGH-FIVE, WORLD!
Anyway :)
Last night I was sitting in front of my computer listening to every song from my rotation all over once more. And then I opened up Word and started writing again. Lol. Goddamn it must've been only like 11, but my eyes felt like they'd been tossed into sand and set aflame.
But I thought, "Eh, what the hell. What's stopping me from getting any, uh, LESS sleep...No harm done right? XD"
What I started writing about, I don't even remember, but it was this amazingly long and rambling thing, where I talked about my life and my future, all filled with more big words than I can remember. It was just so crazy and impassioned. And I think I even started crying at some point, although that may've just been my eyes dying on me. And it was probably around an hour or so later, when I stopped and I just couldn't even look at the whiteness of the screen anymore.
I just turned off my computer, I didn't bother to save the document either... (thank goodness I'm sure it was all drunken raving).
So what's my point, exactly? I'm not quite sure, hahahaha...
But actually, I think what I was really trying to get across in that document I wrote... was that I'm just so grateful for... everything.
I don't know if I've become any different this year, or grown into a better person, or anything like that. But I'm just so happy with my life, like right now, if the end of the world was coming I'd be all right.
To look at things I guess you could say I'm satisfied by only shallow, world-bound things.
Family.
Friends.
Music.
Books.
Koharu (my mp3 player)
Hell, even youtube videos of Morning Musume playing shiritori together, which is... all they ever do it seems XD
I've gotten good laughs, good sighs, good cries, good byes. Hahaha, yeah I'm losing it now.
I've been given so much having not really given that much myself.
I guess, I'd just like to give the world one big high-five.
Thank you :)
See ya~
I'm going bike riding now!
-p.
Anyway :)
Last night I was sitting in front of my computer listening to every song from my rotation all over once more. And then I opened up Word and started writing again. Lol. Goddamn it must've been only like 11, but my eyes felt like they'd been tossed into sand and set aflame.
But I thought, "Eh, what the hell. What's stopping me from getting any, uh, LESS sleep...No harm done right? XD"
What I started writing about, I don't even remember, but it was this amazingly long and rambling thing, where I talked about my life and my future, all filled with more big words than I can remember. It was just so crazy and impassioned. And I think I even started crying at some point, although that may've just been my eyes dying on me. And it was probably around an hour or so later, when I stopped and I just couldn't even look at the whiteness of the screen anymore.
I just turned off my computer, I didn't bother to save the document either... (thank goodness I'm sure it was all drunken raving).
So what's my point, exactly? I'm not quite sure, hahahaha...
But actually, I think what I was really trying to get across in that document I wrote... was that I'm just so grateful for... everything.
I don't know if I've become any different this year, or grown into a better person, or anything like that. But I'm just so happy with my life, like right now, if the end of the world was coming I'd be all right.
To look at things I guess you could say I'm satisfied by only shallow, world-bound things.
Family.
Friends.
Music.
Books.
Koharu (my mp3 player)
Hell, even youtube videos of Morning Musume playing shiritori together, which is... all they ever do it seems XD
I've gotten good laughs, good sighs, good cries, good byes. Hahaha, yeah I'm losing it now.
I've been given so much having not really given that much myself.
I guess, I'd just like to give the world one big high-five.
Thank you :)
See ya~
I'm going bike riding now!
-p.