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i guess you can say that immiturity could best describe me right now.
breaking up with the girl you thought you liked can seriously make you feel like shit.
especially when she didn't do anything wrong.
she likes me alot and i feel like im screwing her over, but my heart says yes, and so as of now i STILL don't feel ready for a committed relationship.
she says it'll be hard to "just be friends" for awhile which isn't what i had in mind when i said its over because i truthfully have gotten to know her better than half of my friends i have known for years. that all comes with dating i guess.
i don't know what i want.
i thought i just wanted to be the perfect man, but thats hard to be i guess.
thats scary.
will i ever grow up.
im 18 going on 11 1/2.
its middle school shit all over again.
those in love, i envy you.
i just wish i could not think of myself all the time.
i want to become the man i pictured myself being 5 years ago.
i just need some time to think things through some more.
maybe i do like her? maybe i don't? my heart is a tricky puzzle.
someday someone will solve it.
until then...
breaking up with the girl you thought you liked can seriously make you feel like shit.
especially when she didn't do anything wrong.
she likes me alot and i feel like im screwing her over, but my heart says yes, and so as of now i STILL don't feel ready for a committed relationship.
she says it'll be hard to "just be friends" for awhile which isn't what i had in mind when i said its over because i truthfully have gotten to know her better than half of my friends i have known for years. that all comes with dating i guess.
i don't know what i want.
i thought i just wanted to be the perfect man, but thats hard to be i guess.
thats scary.
will i ever grow up.
im 18 going on 11 1/2.
its middle school shit all over again.
those in love, i envy you.
i just wish i could not think of myself all the time.
i want to become the man i pictured myself being 5 years ago.
i just need some time to think things through some more.
maybe i do like her? maybe i don't? my heart is a tricky puzzle.
someday someone will solve it.
until then...