god damnit adam!

[lacrymosa]

i don't know what to make of adam sometimes, one of those things where they'll tell you willingly that htey love you. but that doesn't necessarily make it authentic... and with all this talk about true love at my school, it leaves me in doubt with him.... and furthermore, i just don't know... he sure doesn't ahve a way with words, like when i'm all hyped up with the notion of doing crew. he's all "yeah, no offense but i dont' think i'd want you on the same team as me." and i understan this. but somehow i really didn't want to fucking hear that. like it was not in my top ten things that i want to hear.
so i don't know, looks like my dreams have been squashed in regards to that..
but i suppose i can apply to