I will turn your desires into a crime.
hmm well troops after a long night of basic isolation i am once again centered.i have come to the acceptance that Relationships and Love especially True Love ,in the sense of the ideals that we usually quest for and try to hold on to "our fairy tale illusion" if you will,is nothing more than an exercise of futililty.An effort sought in Vain never to be realized by anyone else but the pursuer of the ideal.i have the awsome fairy tale idea of what i want and desire but it is nothing more than a fairy tale ;/ a pipe dream,a design to create emotional voulnerability and and mental instability.I suppose for for some the fairy tale exists but it has been proven to me that for me and others of my kind it dosent or is not meant for us .at this point i have realized that my folly lies in becomming emotionl and emotionally involved,and so that will simply have to stop.i have stopped it before and for a long managed to stay emotionally detatched from situations but somewhere down the line i regained some sense of humanity and emotional warmness in the realm of emotion ;/ to this day i have found that to be my end.so as with other ideals and fairytales the Love and perfection of union will be put up in a pretty little black box on a shelf to collect dust with the others.all in this does not mean that i am going to become a raging asshole or whoremonger or anyhting ;/ only that romantic and other endeavours will be taken with a somewhat large degree of emotional detatchment.i will still no how to love but will only show adoration and maybe fondness,sort of vampiric in a certain sense.creatures of the night we are ,some of us ,and so with that comes the gains and losses that come with it .
