Havent posted in a while....
so I thought I'd stop by and explain why.
Havent really been in the mood, because theres been really big shit going on between certain best friends cheating with other certain best friends/ex boyfriends. Just a lot of shit piling on top of each other. Relatively evened out by now, made up with Katelyn, talking to Beryl, if under the condition that he never touches me in any way again (this makes it sound like he molested me, which isnt true, just find him generally revolting now, hence not wanting to be touched).
Otherwise, school's not going badly but not going great. I can already tell this quarter isnt going to be too much better than my last one, since I feel a very strong disposition to NOT do ANY homework assigned to me, which is very bad because I then dont exactly ace the tests. I dont exactly get where this disposition is coming from, and its not good. But theres very little I feel like I can do about it.
Right now, I'm sitting at my dad's house, waiting to go spend a good 5 hours baking things for Christmas with Nicole, her two sisters Tete and Sissy (aka Caroline and Margarite), her mother Nanny (Elizabeth), and probably Isabel (my step cousin person.)This could go well, or I could be miserable the whole time. I've been going to Christmas Dinners, Thanksgiving dinners, etc with them for like half of my life, but these people are on such different moral and ethnic levels that I still feel uncomfortable there usually. Possibly b/c I've been raised SO differently, and because I almost feel like I'm on trial every time I go there. I've heard the way they talk about Carly (another girl in the family who's in the exact same situation as I) when she's not around - ha! But hey. Nicole's having a baby, so I'll be conveniantly ... not there. Not to mention I'm off to college in a couple years. (ooh, scary... I need to start looking - shouldnt these people be sending me shit already?)
Putting a small note on how desperately I wish I could see you guys in Moscow, and go to a Melnitsa concert with you *glare*.
And I'm out. Ciao!
-Sashka
Havent really been in the mood, because theres been really big shit going on between certain best friends cheating with other certain best friends/ex boyfriends. Just a lot of shit piling on top of each other. Relatively evened out by now, made up with Katelyn, talking to Beryl, if under the condition that he never touches me in any way again (this makes it sound like he molested me, which isnt true, just find him generally revolting now, hence not wanting to be touched).
Otherwise, school's not going badly but not going great. I can already tell this quarter isnt going to be too much better than my last one, since I feel a very strong disposition to NOT do ANY homework assigned to me, which is very bad because I then dont exactly ace the tests. I dont exactly get where this disposition is coming from, and its not good. But theres very little I feel like I can do about it.
Right now, I'm sitting at my dad's house, waiting to go spend a good 5 hours baking things for Christmas with Nicole, her two sisters Tete and Sissy (aka Caroline and Margarite), her mother Nanny (Elizabeth), and probably Isabel (my step cousin person.)This could go well, or I could be miserable the whole time. I've been going to Christmas Dinners, Thanksgiving dinners, etc with them for like half of my life, but these people are on such different moral and ethnic levels that I still feel uncomfortable there usually. Possibly b/c I've been raised SO differently, and because I almost feel like I'm on trial every time I go there. I've heard the way they talk about Carly (another girl in the family who's in the exact same situation as I) when she's not around - ha! But hey. Nicole's having a baby, so I'll be conveniantly ... not there. Not to mention I'm off to college in a couple years. (ooh, scary... I need to start looking - shouldnt these people be sending me shit already?)
Putting a small note on how desperately I wish I could see you guys in Moscow, and go to a Melnitsa concert with you *glare*.
And I'm out. Ciao!
-Sashka